Thirty Seconds

It's interesting, how when in a moment of reflection, I can go through a number of polar opposites of feelings. In the time it takes for the second hand on a watch tick for thirty seconds, i've covered at least six different emotions with varying depths of passion.

Some of this is due to the speed the mind travels and the amount of topics one can think of in thirty seconds time. I feel Anxious, Sorrowful, Anger/Wrath/Hate, Pride, Thankfulness, Humble, and Inspired in thirty seconds.

Anxious for the future but almost simultaneously become relaxed when I think that God will take care of it.

Which leads to a moment of sorrow because of what opportunities I might miss for choosing one path rather than another.

This gives way to anger because of the past, which brings about a mixture of wrath and hate towards people who may or may not deserve such feelings.

This sends some humbling, upon request, because it is not my duty to do what God can take care of. Which makes me thankful for what he can do but then, in between all of those things I have pride because I know I am a better person than some and I am confident in who I can be. Which then cycles through thankfulness and humbling again because of God.

Thirty seconds.

A lot of emotions.

Welcome to the female brain.

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nicole's 5 things

Five things you will find if you open my bag:

• chapstick/lipgloss
• writing utensils
• book
• tampon
• water bottle

• Five things in my bedroom (dorm room):

• planner
• bible
• yarn
• pictures
• violin

• Five things I’ve always wanted to do in my life:

• teleportation
• be really talented in something that only I can offer
• make beautiful music with whatever instrument I pick up
• ballroom dance with a best friend
• prepare a variety of ethnic foods really well

Five things that make me very happy:

• friends
• conversations about God and or spirituality
• cuddling with significant other
• bunnies
• dogs

Five things I’m currently into:

• clothes/shopping
• crafts/ceramics
• gaming
• classical music
• fitness

Five things on my To-Do list:

• Clean my room
• wrap presents
• get my license
• study for finals
• work

Five things some people may or may not know about you:

• I almost loathed practicing violin
• Shopping for those unmentionables make me warm inside
• I don't like most all perfumes or wearing scents
• I like to write in script
• I like good happy photography

I...

Play tennis

swim

shop

ride

sing

study

read

listen

work

I feel versatile :-)

What I like about Me Moment

What I like about me

#1: I don't need a boyfriend in order to be complete.

#2: I enjoy the comfort of my bible next to me and it gives me a good nights sleep when I'm restless.

#3: I am intentional about being intentional

#4: Even when I have doubt I still come back around and re-realize that God is bigger than anything and can handle it.

#5: I have confidence in myself to succeed and am realistic about the things I can and cannot do.

#6: That I know the difference from what is good for me and what is not so good. Even though sometimes I still follow the things that aren't the greatest for me, I also trust that in my stupidity, that God will turn it to be good and that i'll learn something valuable.

I hate that you are so emotional.
that you can't make up your mind.

and when I sit with my bible I remember the love that should be there for you.... because He loves you.

I hate that you can't get over yourself or the two lovers you have.


I hate that when my friends are sad I feel sad too.
and I hate that when the sun is not shining, I am not shining.

The good thing is that I know what is good and what is right.