Dolly, i know who you are. I thought about it while writing on myspace and i know who you are. I just had a crazy thought and didnt know if i knew who you are/were. I'm not gonna even START telling you and the rest of the readers how great you are- and not only to me. YOu know i love you and I care about you more than u can imagine. YOU are the soul purpose I am here today (alive) (also besides God's guidance and u making me rely on him more). You are Dolly, the one and ONLY. There is no other!!!! Thank goodness for that! if there were two of you i'd go crazy!! I can only give soo much love!!! ;) AND i'd be spending my whole day making sure i talked to both!! ;) :P J/P YOu know i love ya!!!
KOCHAM CIE- MORE! Missin you!
Saturday, May 27, 2006
~For your eyes only~
Dolly, i know who you are. I thought about it while writing on myspace and i know who you are. I just had a crazy thought and didnt know if i knew who you are/were. I'm not gonna even START telling you and the rest of the readers how great you are- and not only to me. YOu know i love you and I care about you more than u can imagine. YOU are the soul purpose I am here today (alive) (also besides God's guidance and u making me rely on him more). You are Dolly, the one and ONLY. There is no other!!!! Thank goodness for that! if there were two of you i'd go crazy!! I can only give soo much love!!! ;) AND i'd be spending my whole day making sure i talked to both!! ;) :P J/P YOu know i love ya!!!
KOCHAM CIE- MORE! Missin you!
KOCHAM CIE- MORE! Missin you!
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
The Utmost!(oh don't get mad, for i know you are reading this)
I have just had a most terrible nightmarish thought! Who IS dolly!!! really, who is she!! She is God's child, i know that.. She is a friend, and I also know that. but really who is dolly... The person. She has soo many different.. whats the word i'm looking for.. personalities.. yes maybe that is is.. What is her true self?? People, including me, (adapt?) to how others act or react to things. We have those overly sensitive people, and we have those very pessimistic and energetic people and,and i am one of these peole who 'act' a certain way around them or maybe talk a certain way around them. I dont know how to explain it. But its just with some people u act a certain way.. do u know what i mean?
I dont know why this question had just occured to me but it has.. But if i also think about it, i have other friends who may act the same way.. But it is she who i ask who she is.. it really scares me. and i suddenly realized that i think i have had this question before.. anyway.. i think after just posting on myspace, i answerd my own question..ha! maybe i know who she is afterall!
I dont know why this question had just occured to me but it has.. But if i also think about it, i have other friends who may act the same way.. But it is she who i ask who she is.. it really scares me. and i suddenly realized that i think i have had this question before.. anyway.. i think after just posting on myspace, i answerd my own question..ha! maybe i know who she is afterall!
Sunday, May 21, 2006
When all else fails..
| Your Linguistic Profile:: |
| 50% General American English |
| 25% Dixie |
| 20% Yankee |
| 0% Midwestern |
| 0% Upper Midwestern |
| You Are 48% Open Minded |
 You aren't exactly open minded, but you have been known to occasionally change your mind. You're tolerant enough to get along with others who are very different... But you may be quietly judgmental of things or people you think are wrong. You take your own values pretty seriously, and it would take a lot to change them. |
| Your Scholastic Strength Is Deep Thinking |
 You aren't afraid to delve head first into a difficult subject, with mastery as your goal. You are talented at adapting, motivating others, managing resources, and analyzing risk. You should major in: Philosophy Music Theology Art History Foreign language |
uck!! and none of these are strengths of mine.. who knew..
Friday, May 19, 2006
So... when can I go??
Would anyone be willing to take me to the beach?? i am dying to jump into the ocean to walk on the beach and to feel the hot sand in my toes. I haven't been to the beach since i started going to camp and I am starting to miss it. I woould preferrably want to go to Florida but i will not be picky! ;)
There is another place i'd like to go though... besides camp, i'd LOVE to go to Maryland right about now. I mean well theres my auntie, Gina, the BEACH, the mall and possibly even Emily soon. :)) So heck why not?? I could go see Gina and we could chill out at the mall a little and go for a ride and catch up. While i'd be with my auntie, we'd go see an opera, go to the beach for the weekend, and i'd get to stay in her most lovely house for a week and wait for her to come home in the evenings around 6pm. I'd get to pamper her JUST A LITTLE, we'd go out to eat, go for runs (whom this is the ONLY person i will run with) and have long talks. They are always nice. My auntie is amazing! its fun just to be with her. :)) And As for emily, I dont know what i'd do if i saw her! I'd stare for a momemnt and then probably plow her over with hugs and kisses. Then i dont know what'd I do.. probably ask for a tour, and then get to know her fabulous mom a little before taking her out to eat. (I know this thai resturant that my auntie took me to once and I liked it very much..) I'd probably choose the olive garden if anywhere because there is always something good there, but then again, it'd be up to her to choose. Wouldn't it be nice??
some of this may actually happen this summer, come to think of it. That is mother permits it.. you never know with her! Well i'd at least be able to go to Maryland.. But because Grandma isnt there anymore it'll be much harder to convince my mom to let me stay in maryland for two weeks.. :((
I have a myspace now for neone who cares. www.myspace.com/luvrgirl91
happy sabbbath guys!
There is another place i'd like to go though... besides camp, i'd LOVE to go to Maryland right about now. I mean well theres my auntie, Gina, the BEACH, the mall and possibly even Emily soon. :)) So heck why not?? I could go see Gina and we could chill out at the mall a little and go for a ride and catch up. While i'd be with my auntie, we'd go see an opera, go to the beach for the weekend, and i'd get to stay in her most lovely house for a week and wait for her to come home in the evenings around 6pm. I'd get to pamper her JUST A LITTLE, we'd go out to eat, go for runs (whom this is the ONLY person i will run with) and have long talks. They are always nice. My auntie is amazing! its fun just to be with her. :)) And As for emily, I dont know what i'd do if i saw her! I'd stare for a momemnt and then probably plow her over with hugs and kisses. Then i dont know what'd I do.. probably ask for a tour, and then get to know her fabulous mom a little before taking her out to eat. (I know this thai resturant that my auntie took me to once and I liked it very much..) I'd probably choose the olive garden if anywhere because there is always something good there, but then again, it'd be up to her to choose. Wouldn't it be nice??
some of this may actually happen this summer, come to think of it. That is mother permits it.. you never know with her! Well i'd at least be able to go to Maryland.. But because Grandma isnt there anymore it'll be much harder to convince my mom to let me stay in maryland for two weeks.. :((
I have a myspace now for neone who cares. www.myspace.com/luvrgirl91
happy sabbbath guys!
Saturday, May 13, 2006
Inspiration
Starting sunday, i'm gonna go a whole week without talking about dolly. not even once! My aunt told me i couldn't do it so i'm gonna do it. :)) i know i can do it,if i can go a week without talking to her i can go a week of talking about her. well i would hope so! ;)
sitting here, trying to write SOMETHING interesting, i have come to find that i have lost my writing touch. I think it may be due to the lack of writing in my life since last semester. :(( I think, while i'm NOT at camp i might just try to get into writing again.. i've had this craving to write.. but i haven't found anything to write about. I have tried but after reading it it sounds like poo.. my touch has been lost among the many other things!
Anyway.. still miss Emily.. wish she was comin this year.. but shes not.. I WILL find her!! eventually that is..
Love ya katie!!
Can't wait to get with you Gina!! I'm excited to finish our project! :)) mom said after i asked her i could but she wants to take me down and not go straight from camp to your house..:(( :'( i guess it'd be ok.. miss ya chica!
sitting here, trying to write SOMETHING interesting, i have come to find that i have lost my writing touch. I think it may be due to the lack of writing in my life since last semester. :(( I think, while i'm NOT at camp i might just try to get into writing again.. i've had this craving to write.. but i haven't found anything to write about. I have tried but after reading it it sounds like poo.. my touch has been lost among the many other things!
Anyway.. still miss Emily.. wish she was comin this year.. but shes not.. I WILL find her!! eventually that is..
Love ya katie!!
Can't wait to get with you Gina!! I'm excited to finish our project! :)) mom said after i asked her i could but she wants to take me down and not go straight from camp to your house..:(( :'( i guess it'd be ok.. miss ya chica!
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
The joy in little things
Everyday after school, I see more and more little things that make me smile and reminice. Like yesterday for example, Hrabia and I were talking about this 'suprise' he was going to send me and we somehow got talking about sending me 2 big hairy spiders! I dont remember what exactly he said but i was laughing so hard i'm suprised i didnt fall out of my chair. Today, after reading an email, i smiled at the blessings Christ has given me, especially the friends i have gained over the i'm guessing five years of going to camp. (46 days left btw) Since i'm still at my moms doing the fifth load of laundry, i recieved another smile and several laughs while rechecking Katie's blog for the evening before heading out. (and it is cause her entry i decided to post this evening before leaving and giving up on doing MY laundry.. which I initially came up here to do)
And now, i'm once again drawn back to good memories of the seeming to be lost emily Y. and her last post as i have just been there again.. ( it, for some reason, keeps giving me explorer problems) I suppose i have already mentioned the fact that i miss her.. prob. in a recent post too. :) And thinking of Gina B., i'm deeply blessed because of her friendship and cheerfulness! i asked my mom this afternoon, in fact, if i could stay with Gina for a few days after camp in MD if i stay with mom for a week. :)) And dearest dolly, who hasnt been home for several days. SO MANY stories and great things. I'm actually pondering once again on writing my narative writing on our meeting.. although i vaguely remember it.. HA! The subj. is a significant moment in your life. (meeting new ppl, learned something new,went somewhere new, learned lesson, coming to a realization, or learning something new about yourself) HA! maybe i should do a realization of the importance of God in my life and the affects he has had on me (friends, relationships with family,impact of faith and truth and the great sacrafice he made to save millions. Sounds good. :))
Ok, getting of the point of the entry!
here were a list of seven(now eight) memorable events ( the first ones that came to mind): 1.my first time going to church camp and met some of my closest friends. 2.In the grls cabin, making a prayer (aloud) and getting some awkward/uncomfortable attention on the depth of the prayer. 3. HORSES 4. Leaving middle school and close friends and many memories and transitions. 5.TWO WORDS: TEDDY STODDARD!! 6.My best friend: Dolly! MORE!! (meeting her and her helping me with major things and realization of many things)7. Umphrey: enough said. 8.and this year, BMA!!! getting the papers i need for BMA!!! :D:D:D:D
ok good night! God bless!
And now, i'm once again drawn back to good memories of the seeming to be lost emily Y. and her last post as i have just been there again.. ( it, for some reason, keeps giving me explorer problems) I suppose i have already mentioned the fact that i miss her.. prob. in a recent post too. :) And thinking of Gina B., i'm deeply blessed because of her friendship and cheerfulness! i asked my mom this afternoon, in fact, if i could stay with Gina for a few days after camp in MD if i stay with mom for a week. :)) And dearest dolly, who hasnt been home for several days. SO MANY stories and great things. I'm actually pondering once again on writing my narative writing on our meeting.. although i vaguely remember it.. HA! The subj. is a significant moment in your life. (meeting new ppl, learned something new,went somewhere new, learned lesson, coming to a realization, or learning something new about yourself) HA! maybe i should do a realization of the importance of God in my life and the affects he has had on me (friends, relationships with family,impact of faith and truth and the great sacrafice he made to save millions. Sounds good. :))
Ok, getting of the point of the entry!
here were a list of seven(now eight) memorable events ( the first ones that came to mind): 1.my first time going to church camp and met some of my closest friends. 2.In the grls cabin, making a prayer (aloud) and getting some awkward/uncomfortable attention on the depth of the prayer. 3. HORSES 4. Leaving middle school and close friends and many memories and transitions. 5.TWO WORDS: TEDDY STODDARD!! 6.My best friend: Dolly! MORE!! (meeting her and her helping me with major things and realization of many things)7. Umphrey: enough said. 8.and this year, BMA!!! getting the papers i need for BMA!!! :D:D:D:D
ok good night! God bless!
Sunday, May 07, 2006
Eminem-Mockingbird.. good song. Kay and my song!
I know sometimes things may not always make sense to you right now
But hey, what daddy always tell you?
Straighten up little soldier
Stiffen up that upper lip
What you crying about?
You got me
Hailie I know you miss your mom and I know you miss your dad
When I'm gone but I'm trying to give you the life that I never had
I can see you're sad, even when you smile, even when you laugh
I can see it in your eyes, deep inside you want to cry
Cuz you're scared, I ain't there?
Daddy's with you in your prayers
No more crying, wipe them tears
Daddy's here, no more nightmares
We gonna pull together through it, we gonna do it
Lainie uncle's crazy, aint he?
Yeah but he loves you girl and you better know it
We're all we got in this world
When it spins, when it swirls
When it whirls, when it twirls
Two little beautiful girls
Lookin' puzzled, in a daze
I know it's confusing you
Daddy's always on the move, mamma's always on the news
I try to keep you sheltered from it but somehow it seems
The harder that I try to do that, the more it backfires on me
All the things growing up as daddy that he had to see
Daddy don't want you to see but you see just as much as he did
We did not plan it to be this way, your mother and me
But things have got so bad between us
I don't see us ever being together ever again
Like we used to be when we was teenagers
But then of course everything always happens for a reason
I guess it was never meant to be
But it's just something we have no control over and that's what destiny is
But no more worries, rest your head and go to sleep
Maybe one day we'll wake up and this will all just be a dream
[Chorus]
Now hush little baby, don't you cry
Everything's gonna be alright
Stiffen that upperlip up little lady, i told ya
Daddy's here to hold ya through the night
I know mommy's not here right now and we don't know why
We feel how we feel inside
It may seem a little crazy, pretty baby
But i promise momma's gon' be alright
It's funny
I remember back when you and daddy had no money
Mommy wrapped the Christmas presents up
And stuck 'em under the tree and said some of 'em were from me
Cuz daddy couldn't buy 'em
I'll never forget that Christmas I sat up the whole night crying
Cuz daddy felt like a bum, see daddy had a job
But his job was to keep the food on the table for you and mom
And at the time every house that we lived in
Either kept getting broken into and robbed
Or shot up on the block and your mom was saving money for you in a jar
Trying to start a piggy bank for you so you could go to college
Almost had a thousand dollars till someone broke in and stole it
And I know it hurt so bad it broke your momma's heart
And it seemed like everything was just startin' to fall apart
Mom and dad was arguin' a lot so momma moved back
Onto Chalmers in a flat one bedroom apartment
And dad moved back to the other side of 8 Mile on Novara
And that's when daddy went to California with his CD and met Dr. Dre
And flew you and momma out to see me
But daddy had to work, you and momma had to leave me
Then you started seeing daddy on the T.V. and momma didn't like it
And you and Lainnie were to young to understand it
That Papa was a rollin' stone, momma developed a habit
And it all happened too fast for either one of us to grab it
I'm just sorry you were there and had to witness it first hand
Cuz all I ever wanted to do was just make you proud
Now I'm sittin in this empty house, just reminiscing
Lookin' at your baby pictures, it just trips me out
To see how much you both have grown, it's almost like you're sisters now
Wow, I guess you pretty much are and daddy's still here
Lainie I'm talkin' to you too, daddy's still here
I like the sound of that, yeah
It's got a ring to it don't it?
Shh, momma's only gone for the moment
[Chorus]
But hey, what daddy always tell you?
Straighten up little soldier
Stiffen up that upper lip
What you crying about?
You got me
Hailie I know you miss your mom and I know you miss your dad
When I'm gone but I'm trying to give you the life that I never had
I can see you're sad, even when you smile, even when you laugh
I can see it in your eyes, deep inside you want to cry
Cuz you're scared, I ain't there?
Daddy's with you in your prayers
No more crying, wipe them tears
Daddy's here, no more nightmares
We gonna pull together through it, we gonna do it
Lainie uncle's crazy, aint he?
Yeah but he loves you girl and you better know it
We're all we got in this world
When it spins, when it swirls
When it whirls, when it twirls
Two little beautiful girls
Lookin' puzzled, in a daze
I know it's confusing you
Daddy's always on the move, mamma's always on the news
I try to keep you sheltered from it but somehow it seems
The harder that I try to do that, the more it backfires on me
All the things growing up as daddy that he had to see
Daddy don't want you to see but you see just as much as he did
We did not plan it to be this way, your mother and me
But things have got so bad between us
I don't see us ever being together ever again
Like we used to be when we was teenagers
But then of course everything always happens for a reason
I guess it was never meant to be
But it's just something we have no control over and that's what destiny is
But no more worries, rest your head and go to sleep
Maybe one day we'll wake up and this will all just be a dream
[Chorus]
Now hush little baby, don't you cry
Everything's gonna be alright
Stiffen that upperlip up little lady, i told ya
Daddy's here to hold ya through the night
I know mommy's not here right now and we don't know why
We feel how we feel inside
It may seem a little crazy, pretty baby
But i promise momma's gon' be alright
It's funny
I remember back when you and daddy had no money
Mommy wrapped the Christmas presents up
And stuck 'em under the tree and said some of 'em were from me
Cuz daddy couldn't buy 'em
I'll never forget that Christmas I sat up the whole night crying
Cuz daddy felt like a bum, see daddy had a job
But his job was to keep the food on the table for you and mom
And at the time every house that we lived in
Either kept getting broken into and robbed
Or shot up on the block and your mom was saving money for you in a jar
Trying to start a piggy bank for you so you could go to college
Almost had a thousand dollars till someone broke in and stole it
And I know it hurt so bad it broke your momma's heart
And it seemed like everything was just startin' to fall apart
Mom and dad was arguin' a lot so momma moved back
Onto Chalmers in a flat one bedroom apartment
And dad moved back to the other side of 8 Mile on Novara
And that's when daddy went to California with his CD and met Dr. Dre
And flew you and momma out to see me
But daddy had to work, you and momma had to leave me
Then you started seeing daddy on the T.V. and momma didn't like it
And you and Lainnie were to young to understand it
That Papa was a rollin' stone, momma developed a habit
And it all happened too fast for either one of us to grab it
I'm just sorry you were there and had to witness it first hand
Cuz all I ever wanted to do was just make you proud
Now I'm sittin in this empty house, just reminiscing
Lookin' at your baby pictures, it just trips me out
To see how much you both have grown, it's almost like you're sisters now
Wow, I guess you pretty much are and daddy's still here
Lainie I'm talkin' to you too, daddy's still here
I like the sound of that, yeah
It's got a ring to it don't it?
Shh, momma's only gone for the moment
[Chorus]
Saturday, May 06, 2006
what can i say??
Someone is jealous!!!! :));)
What was i going to say... I love emmy!! not cousin.. lolol well i love her too but i love my yancer girl wherever she is.. :(( lol thats not wat i was going to say..
well anyway.. camp is coming! I'm SUPPOSED to be going shopping this week!!! :)) i hope i can get to hollister and american eagle.. i'm on a hunt for these pants.. that yancer girl that seems as if she doesnt exist in the real world anymore has them.. and i really like them..
anyway.. how many days till camp??1 Month, 2 Weeks, 4 Days so thats.. what.. 48days??? i'm excited!! ONE MONTh and 2 days until school lets out!! AND THEN!! i'm gonna beg my mom to go to Maryland for a week!!! a week with my auntie and in that week, a few days with my beloved Gina b. !!!
ok g2g!
My love goin to Frank, MY DEAR KATIE (whos amazing), HRABIA and my dearest most beloved dolly...
What was i going to say... I love emmy!! not cousin.. lolol well i love her too but i love my yancer girl wherever she is.. :(( lol thats not wat i was going to say..
well anyway.. camp is coming! I'm SUPPOSED to be going shopping this week!!! :)) i hope i can get to hollister and american eagle.. i'm on a hunt for these pants.. that yancer girl that seems as if she doesnt exist in the real world anymore has them.. and i really like them..
anyway.. how many days till camp??1 Month, 2 Weeks, 4 Days so thats.. what.. 48days??? i'm excited!! ONE MONTh and 2 days until school lets out!! AND THEN!! i'm gonna beg my mom to go to Maryland for a week!!! a week with my auntie and in that week, a few days with my beloved Gina b. !!!
ok g2g!
My love goin to Frank, MY DEAR KATIE (whos amazing), HRABIA and my dearest most beloved dolly...
Friday, May 05, 2006
She's not the only one...
Camp is almost here people! :D:D:D
I was just about to write about how much i miss doll and that i havent' talked to her for ALMOST a week now. She must have sensed my vibes and got on right after i was telling Kris how much i missed her! but truly, its not ONLY her i miss, i miss my dear emily yancer as well as katie and Gina J... I'm really gonna miss Gina man.. AND Frank!! I dont want to believe he's not going to be here!! i'm still.. i dunno! Frank is AMAZING!! the bestest guy staff! Even over Jeremy! ;) J/K they're equally as great! :)) and then theres Ryan and Amy.. neither are coming back.. and jen.. and Jen b.. and all my great ppl.. :(
ook going to try to catch up on my dearest doll now!
love ya guys!
I was just about to write about how much i miss doll and that i havent' talked to her for ALMOST a week now. She must have sensed my vibes and got on right after i was telling Kris how much i missed her! but truly, its not ONLY her i miss, i miss my dear emily yancer as well as katie and Gina J... I'm really gonna miss Gina man.. AND Frank!! I dont want to believe he's not going to be here!! i'm still.. i dunno! Frank is AMAZING!! the bestest guy staff! Even over Jeremy! ;) J/K they're equally as great! :)) and then theres Ryan and Amy.. neither are coming back.. and jen.. and Jen b.. and all my great ppl.. :(
ook going to try to catch up on my dearest doll now!
love ya guys!
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