Strict Study Hall 2

Can I scream and cry for joy? Emily yancer and Katie both came to see me last night during study hall! My three favorite people in the world I saw in two days!! Never would I have thought that could and would ever happen. My dearest yancer took so many pictures I felt like I was at a photo shoot in my semi-pjs. And yet, she didn’t want to be in any pictures herself! Silly girl. We didn’t do much of anything except for me hugging them both almost through the entire time period they had stayed. They were here until a little around 8:30 and I was utterly thrilled. My poor roommate has put up with me this week and all my crying and screaming and everything and I honestly don’t know how she has lasted. Dude, I saw all three of my favorite people!! How often does that happen? I’m way excited to get pictures printed! Dude as soon as they are sent to me I’m going to try darn hard to get them on CD and get to Wal-Mart to print them out! And as for Dolly, I hope she comes home to my house to see me! (Hint, hint dolly) I need soo many more pictures I didn’t take nearly enough! AND, Dolly, you could meet my cousins and my grandmother and we could go for a walk over to their house and have loads of fun! There is so much I would love to do in the little time you are home! You have really no idea!!

EMILY, KATIE, DOll, I love you!!!!



FYI both puters are down so I'll have limited, very limited computer usage until i do return. Unless my a miracle I get one.

A Strict Studyhall to Remember

Dude, I STILL can't believe it! Waking up this morning I contently smiled this morning but had to slap myself just to be sure that i indeed wasn't dead. (And I still don't believe it.) I've been waiting for yesterday to come for two years and never thought it would come, much less while I am at BMA as a student. Dolly people!!!And she told me I didn't have manors! :P Dolly, I DO have manors! :)) So anyway, I saw her before Nase and yea.. anyway, sprained ankle, no shoes and all i ran from downstairs puter lab to the adbuilding. and even BEFORE i got in the adbuilding i was screaming. Her hair gave her away soo fast! I could see it from outside the adbuilding through a window! So, no, i didn't cry like I had when i first found out that she's in the states but i screamed! Of course not like anything i had done also the day before but still... Dolly loves me! She came to see me!! Heck yes!! This is crazy! talk about the worlds best xmas present in the history of the universe much less the worlds happiest little girl! I can't forget about the rest of the reasons why this is the best xmas! I saw katie and her dramatic change from cowgirl to prep. and got hugs from her. My xmas is complete. I have to just figure out how this whole, "yea i'll come home with you and stay there," is going to work because i leave tomorrow and wont be back around until Doll leaves. The question is when would this happen before you leave and before i come back. I dont even know how to describe how i am feeling other than content. I could say that I'm happy, but that doesn't describe it. I could say extatic but that isn't how i feel either. I'm content because she came home to see me and it felt just normal (yet it was far from it). it felt like we've been doing this everday for the past two years and even before she parted for Poland. this is craziness! Its impossible! (...there is no such thing as a sexy picture of me!) All i want to do for the rest of the day is be in my bed and be content. Nothing else.. maybe finish watching memoirs of a geisha...

ok so right about now, is where my day couldn't be any worse. I'll tell you what i WANT to do. I want to go crawl into a tiny, empty space in my closet, close the door so its nice and dark and cry. My ankle is sore, i made myself walk, i had to get up out of bed who knows how many times. Last night after hurting my ankle, Nikki couldn't do anything for me when i went to the office and i was late for studyhall, shelly gave me grief and I still had to work that night (which didn't happen) Before leaving for the piano recital I got an ace bandage. When i got to the sanctuary and found a seat, Mericel put the ace bandage on. Talk about pain. Tears filled, and I was in soo much pain i couldnt even get my vocal cords to work to scream even if I wanted to. So, walking from dorm to building back to dorm and then back to building again was fustrating. It wasn't the pain that made me upset it was how slow i was that bothered me. I wasn't able to clean my room last night because of my tiredness so that had to be put off and i am usually not a messy person at all. I can't even stand a little dust! After my 5th period class, the first thing i hear come out of my roomates mouth when she returned from home, is grief because i left the bedroom door unlocked and the lights on and there wasnt any water left in the room. My geometry teacher made me angry too. I had walked down there, with an ankle in pain, to find out if i could get a worksheet because i had missplaced mine. He opened the door to assist another student and closed it on me and walked away when i was right there. I stood there, motioned for roxy and Lazar wouldnt let her. I motioned for Lazar and he ignored me although he saw me. I had to walk back up to Shofner's class, emptied handed. Then when i did have geometry class he closed the door on me and walked away again before I could get in the room. The bell had just finished ringing so i was late. I told him before i left the classroom the first time that i needed to go to my locker to get my book. So he closed the door, i stood there for a moment and then turned and limped away stopping at the music door entrance, thought what i SHOULD do and decided to proceed to the office and let attendance know that i was present in class. Talked to mr. Hannah, mr. Hannah talked to Lazar and I was back in class. All through this i was in pain. now for dinner and carrying a pack of water back up to the room. :)
oh and i suppose i forgot to mention that i've stopped talking to dolly until she comes home which makes me all the more miserable (not that miserable but it still adds up) ;). and was told today to suck it up ( my ankle). I'm on a mission to be better before homeleave. Ice, eleveation,compression, rest..RICE
love you katie! thinking of you!

You must worship Christ as Lord of your life. And if you are asked about your Christian hope, always be ready to explain it. 1 Peter 3:15

God has given you a whole new life--and a great message to share with people who do not know about Jesus. So make sure your message matches your lifestyle!

A complete and happy world

Well, to make everything SOO SOO short, because mainly i have a report to finish, Katie came Friday night. Dude, i was looking for her for a bit over a 1/2 hour, but wasnt too bad. I only walked around in circles only a million times. :)) Anyway, i just wanted to tell ya'll how extremely happy and thrilled I was. I had forgotten how very, very, VERY, VERY,VERY much i missed that girl, miss Katie Carlson. For a long while i hadn't missed her, hadn't even thought of her. OK so now i have to go and do real typing. This was just my warm-up.

Patience is a Virtue

In one day, maybe a little less by now, all the unionites that i haven't seen since July are coming home for christmas break and I'll be among the many who get to enjoy the presence of these people. On Friday, Mindy, the ever so dearest Mindy herself is visiting but that is just what i heard. So there is nothing for certain there.
Messiah weekend is this weekend and i've actually attempted to practice and for the first time in a while i cut my nails to the point where I can efficiently play my viola. OH and another thing, i'm dropping viola lessons and i'm going to start cello second semester. But, in reality i'm not sure if that's what i'm going to do. But if anything, i'll be dropping lessons. I very much dislike having to make sure i have a certain amount of min/hours in per week. It's truly a pain.

and then... there's dolly the beloved... Yea, she's most likely not coming home and if she is she'll be accompanied. But she tells me to trust her, so yes dolly, i am trusting you. In what I don't know but i am.

So anyway, i'm going to go to lunch now. I hope there's something good or i'm coming back to make myself a pot of rice. :)) yumm...

Yes, a person is a fool to store up earthly wealth but not have a rich relationship with God. Luke 12:21

Thinking that wealth can make us happy is foolish. Only a right relationship with God brings fulfillment and joy in this life--and treasure for the life to come!

You know who you are

maja znajomy,
kiedy pan przyjdzie znowu? Can i miss you?! ( i hope i got it all right) kocham cie!! I'll be waiting and waiting and waiting.. hopefully as patiently as possible. anyway, know that i love you MORE!!!! always and always and always!!! WITH ALL MY HEART! I'm trusting you! Be good LBG.


so in a world the rest of you understand, i posted more pictures on webshots and i have changed my myspace and i made my cousin one... well, i started one for her. its her and not her at the same time. i will eventually find when i want for her.

So i'm home for the weekend. i went to church today and was up before 7am too! I thought of Katie yesterday more than i have in the last at least two months. I have started to miss her again too. I'm excited for the unionites to come home for their xmas break. period.
In other news, i got a very sweet email from a teacher who had uplifted my spirits and i'm unimaginably thankful for that. It had been the first positive think i've heard in a good while. God knew i needed that. So thank you to you wherever u may be at this moment. which is prob. in bed like most normal people at 11:30pm. I'm also trying to pull all my grades up and get ahead again. Dude, i barely have time to breathe, much less eat or anything else. My roomie and I both have been getting headaches. I'm dangerously sensitive to light some days and looking at pages with words or anything that makes me look at it hard= headache. I think part of it has been sinus headaches though because i've discovered they arent as bad when i take sinus headache stuff. ok so now i have to go.. its 33 after. i have to finish xmas shopping yet tomorrow.

loves to ya'll

dans freshly plucked eyebrows! dan i'm sorry!!! i had to! at least for Katie!

And we can be confident that he will listen to us whenever we ask him for anything in line with his will. 1 John 5:14

Start praying with confidence!

Everyone will know that the LORD does not need weapons to rescue his people. It is his battle, not ours. 1 Samuel 17:47
When you are tired of life's battles and you feel you can never win, remember that the true victor in this life leaves the battle in the Lord's hands.