So Sorry

Today, I had to explain my situation and my life pretty much to some random guy in the business department today and i felt like what I was doing was something similar to complaining. It put me in an extremely uncomfortable position to say the least. I don't feel as if, in order for people to understand that Scholarships are what is going to keep me at Southern, they need to know my life for the passed three or four years. So What I am going to to about this is..... change my attitude. Yes, seeing that this is an option that i see, I will try and change my attitude about it and see what I can to do explain myself differently next time.

So on the walk back to the dorm with the girl who told me to go to this guy in Brock, I picked up and elaborated a little more on what happened last semester that actually almost required me to have a lawyer. I was telling her something that happened last semester. With that, maybe one day i'll learn to be a fun story-teller. :-) It might make me a better teacher. hmm. Glad I can see multiple sides of life. :P

Prayers Please and Thanks

Jesus' got me. So just trust in Him, self.

What is good:

I want to act as if you are there with me at every moment of the day.

I spent the last two days extremely happy and hyper.

I studied yesterday, swam today, and enjoyed the sun and God's Earth all day today.

I realized that my close-friendships should not be dictated by those who are mostly acquaintances.

and speaking of swimming, we started the butterfly. -Intense

The opposite:

I have a D- in World Geo

I need to study and work hard because I have been slacking the last two weeks- due to not wanting to get out of bed, wanting to sleep all the time and not seeing light at the other end.

I've been reminded of the things I should not do and I am sliding back into old unwanted habits.

I don't care about school work- I care about people. (which would be an awesome thing if school didn't dictate whether i can graduate and launch my career)

Thanks for a fun evening reading children's books for class.

Today my boss noticed a difference in me. He said that we need to talk about life. First thing that comes to mind, I would like to say one thing but I don't know how true it is and the second thing i think of is, what do I say because that's kind of an intimidating conversation.

I am excited about the future and where I am now. I am thankful to God and I am glad I have learned as much as I have in the last year. Now I need to learn why it is okay to lose friends and let them go. I am tormented because I know there are people who are not good for my personal growth but I also know that that didn't stop Jesus from hanging out with people.

I think it is completely possible to talk about things other than other people and boys. I am going to be one of those people who can and hopefully, I will rub off on others. Please, just please stop talking about other people and talking about the opposite sex so often.

The end- Good Night