Today I realized I like being me. Just me; no one else. There are plenty of things I admire about other people, but I thought what I would be like if I were like them. I wouldn't be me.

It would be fun to pretend I was a pirate, or to always go to Neverland. Sometimes I do. Most of the time though, that's not me.

Parts of me wish I was carefree and crazy spontaneous. Sometimes I am. That's alright.

And sometimes I wish I had that flawless, airbrushed skin... The kind you see on some girls naturally and others, only after they have spent 30 minutes in the mirror applying foundation and other products.

If my skin were flawless/airbrushed perfectly, I wouldn't be reminded of the skin my daddy and my nana gave me. I wouldn't have to learn to accept myself and love myself for whatever odd textures or shades my face may have from one day to the next. Or, If i applied make-up every day, I'd be lying to the world..Lying to myself... and also not accepting me. I have make-up yes; it's me on my rebellious days. >-<>

Lets pretend I were one of the many naturally gifted people in academics, arts, music etc. If I were, I wouldn't appreciate my Bs as much or my As as much. I can still appreciate those who have that talent of getting the straight As without much to any effort at all. It's beautiful for the GPA! Without that talent though, I can appreciate the hard work, studying or practice, and that self-discipline that makes me a better person and that pays off in the end.

Oh, and I enjoy the outdoors and wearing regular t-shirts, with my good ol' sneakers. Climbing trees, sitting on the ground in random places, laying in the middle of the street with my auntie. I like horses and I don't mind mucking, I'll jump in a creek or a pond and i'm not scared of seaweed... I also like nice blouses,pencil skirts, fun dresses and modest clothes, and a cute pair of heels. I like scarves, books, reading, and taking notes.

yup.

I like me.

Today is not sunny.

Today is hard.

It is raining outside.

The pool was not open this morning.

Profanity came from my lips several times already this morning. What's worse is I feel a tremendous guilt for the lack of thankfulness and the lack of lady-like behaviors.

I most definitely am not that sunshine today. Last night I read Haggai- that was good; refreshing really. And yesterday was icky too.

But tomorrow... and Tomorrow? Tomorrow is storms and rain. Given, I enjoy sitting on the porch during thunderstorms at home or next to the fireplace in my chair at my grandma's. I suppose i'll picture myself there with a blanket my book. Nothing Else.

For Those Who Asked

In nut shell, I'll lay out the facts:

• Went to the Lake and was 'refreshed' by the water. I was semi-forced to get in the icy water in shorts and a tank. BRR
• Trip to Orlando resulted in ice skating (FUN), Dinner at Kobe's (yum) and getting lost
• Went to Sebastian: saw the sun rise over the horizon, fished and took pictures
• Sat in the Sun
• Made dinner for Sager Family
• Practiced Chess
• Explored the outdoors

Florida Break cont

Coming out of my comfort zone is rewarding. Lesson Learned.

(While in Florida)

Fish

I may not have caught any fish that morning, but i captures some beautiful pictures!

Sometimes I wish I could take away all your pain and troubles; so that you may see all joy

...But then if i really could, I probably wouldn't. Jesus has the power to and he doesn't. He surely knows what is best. If i had to guess, I would have to say, he lets us with our troubles and sorrows so that we may learn and grow from them. He doesn't leave us out there all alone though either- he definitely is there beside you and I the entire time (even if we don't feel him)

Florida So far