Post for today

the post for today? Not exciting... Slept, read, cleaned up my room, and chatted for a few min. Yea, a whole bunch of nothingness...I might as well shut my computer off cause thats where my life lays. Nothing to do on the computer either.. Jen. is sick, and Dolly is with her family for Chrismtas break. Oh, and I did try to call Patti trying to find Doll and no answer once again.. I know shes ok i would just like to know where in the world she is and maybe find a new blog to read.. :) So anyway, cleaned my room up a little bit andd let some fresh air flow through it this morning while admiring my artwork of Doll. LOLOL trust me i didn't really draw! It was just some doodling.. hehe I'm going to try to make it larger.. TRY.. I totally need a life, don't ya think? I doodle/draw even though i hate to draw, and that's only cause i'm horrible at it.. No book is going to teach me how to draw with the right side of my brain.. not going to happen.. There's no harm in trying though..

I've got a few projects that need to get finished but I don't feel like dealing with school and I'm hoping to keep it that way for as long as possible. I think there's something wrong with me because i'm usually the one that you'll find in her room working on school work when ever she has time. For the science fair project I need to hand in my draft in by the 13 of jan. ( i think) For Library the assignment is read a book and do a summary and an extra project thing to go along with it (due jan. 5) For social Studies all I have to do is make up some work.. and that's due when i get back. Not much at all just don't wanna work on it.. I'll get to it eventually.. when i'm tired of not doing anything or maybe i'll miss school work..

I wanted to go to the Library today to find a book or something but figured i can try to do that tom. along with picking up my glasses since these contacts are crap.. So Yea, did a whole bunch of nothingness once again.. no excitement, didnt go to emily's cause its too cold to walk out there..
Dolly, where are you?!?!? I need some sort of entertainment!

ok i tried..

I tried to make it work.. it's just not going to do it!! Waa!!! Dolly or Mike needs to help me out here!! SOMEOME!! HELP!! Anyway, The pictures below are pictures from Christmas with my mom's side of the family. Thank goodness i only have one aunt and uncle on my dad's side!! just imagine.. no!! don't!

This is just a picture of a whole bunch of kids and imagine this is only half of them!! the other half of my cousins is in the other living room! 

This is my cousin Chrystal too.. 

This is Aaron 

Aaron tried to be santa this year! he wasnt very succeful because a 6 year old came up to him and said your not real! my brother said your just an old guy dressed up in a santa suit. 

heres Kaitlyn trying on something she got from her grandma 

Doesnt that look yummy? 

trying here.. 

Christmas with the family 

Oh the drama..

Merry Christmas my friends! so far nothing really happened yet.. my mom asked Ilgar and delyara to come over for Christmas after i specifically told her not to invite them over for ne sort of christmas. Christmas was orginally a family gathering in our family. Every holiday so far has been ruined by them. My mom has no respect at all for things that i want.. So she ruines my life.. not one holiday ever not even my birthday has ever went well... sigh.. but life goes on..right?

But anyway, its like 3:00pm now and i go to my grandma's at 4 and guess what else? Ilgar and Delyara are comming with!! sorry but i'm POed.. anywho, i took a walk and called some people to wish them merry Christmas and no one is home.. not to my suprise but.. Called Doll let it ring a few times and then tried to call Erin Hannah.. dolly called me back!! didn't quite catch her though.. sigh.. I saved her message to me though! (im such a geek! ;)) So i have one more hour to do a whole bunch of nothingness.. Just thought I'd post a little bit of something. and by the way, DOLLY i love ya!! Shell i love you too!! miss you guys! Shell, maybe if we are lucky Dolly will come see us! whoohoo!! LOL Lata's think i'm going to take a nap or something.. xoxo

Christmas Eve- Game plan..

It's Christmas Eve and I haven't done anything but anything besides getting Christmas Presents ready.. Tomorrow around 6 i'm supposed to be watching my two cousins, the annoying ones, with my mother dearest...Still wondering how in the world i'm supposed to get this small present to Doll and my mom wants me to go see Ali, matt, and rai on christmas!! come on!! who wants to see their teacher on christmas day?!?! Seriously?! Lol no affense my teachers out there! I love you dearly but I bet none of ya wanna put up with any kid thats not their on on Christmas. But anyway, I did pretty much a whole bunch of nothingness most of the night. I was at my computer, ate a salad, waited for someone to get online or maybe someone to call.. no one.. I called my uncle hes with his friend, Jessica. My auntie is in Canada for the next two weeks, No answer from Kaylee, No answer from Dolly or Patti, Moni was out, Teachers don't wanna hear from me most likely.. Jen went to bed early, Andi is away, Deb wasn't home and she wont be til 2pm tom., and I think thats everyone that I called.. So I waited a little while for Doll face to call. no luck there.. waited a few min.. gave up.. She's most likely either sleeping by 9pm or having some family time or something.. Not too worried bout it.. Shes safe and sound. My dad is at his house, all alone on Christmas Eve and he's not comming over for Christmas this year because my mother and dad are in a fight. So its pointless really...My mom's whole side of the family should be down at my grandmother's house by 4pm tomorrow. We will exchange gifts and hang out for a little while.. Me, be bored to death.. I'll have like 21 little cousins over, not one of them my age and the one thats close to my age, Emily, has been a lil "mean" lately.. Or something of that sort. I got Chocolate for my aunts, only 4 of them on this side thank God! So i have 3 uncles, 4 aunts, 3 grandmothers(1 ofwhich can't come up cause of illness), 21-23 cousins ( a few who i dont know yet..), no grandfathers(all died when i was lil'), 1 bro, 1 mother by blood, 1 dad whos not going to be there, 3-4 dogs with us, all of my cats outside, presents. And in my mind will be everyone i love dearly! Wishing they were with me... One day..sigh.. When I get a house, for Christmas i want everyone that i love with me. But for now, only in my heart..

For the few people who read this these small messages are for you for the end of the year:
Jen. B: sweetie, I love you! I don't want anything ever to happen to you. If only you'd give it to me.. sigh.. God has a plan for you and you have convinced me in some way.. But I wish that he didnt give it to you.. I don't know how long i've known you but you've become very close to my heart and hopefully, you'll come back in the spring! God has given you so many friends who love you as much as I do and have known you even longer than I. All I hope is you have a wonderful Christmas! you will be in my thoughts through out the day.

Jenny S.: (shes most likely not even going to come to my blog but what the heck!!) oh!! Jenny SPICER!! How you have changed! and in a great way I might add!! Lets just say you were the person who lead me to God. You were the one who was my inspiration, you were the one I looked for when going to camp. Except for last year knowing you wouldnt be there...sigh... I got over it quickly though!! Also, keeping in mind, the very Jenny Brown would soon be changing into a Jenny Spicer!! :)) There isn't much to say.. All I can say is that i love you very much and that you have been my idol so to speak for 3 years now! logest ANYONE has ever been something so great to me! Really!! usually I find someone better within a few months or less..YOu will ALWAYS have a special place in my heart and Dolly will NEVER replace you! i assure you!! I PROMISE!! But you both have been great to me in ways you don't know..

Dolly: Now for you!! yes, you are 3rd.. But only because you know how much i love you!! Lets just say you and I have a lot of things in common. YOu and Jenny S. are very special. You have grown on me! I know the moment I was even told about you you were going to be great! But I never thought we would be good friends like we are.. Well at least you are my great friend but i don't know what I am to you. (not like its bad or nething ya know) ;) I don't know what to say that you don't already know.. So i made it short for you! DOLLY, I LOVE YA! I love your voice and your hair too! lol ;)

well.. those are the main three people for now.. maybe more people later.. I don't know yet.. my fingers are sore, my eyes are heavy and I gotta be up in 6 hours.. Merry Christmas ya'll!! God Bless! May God be wit ya'll!! God rules! And Satan is a jerk! LOL

Last Day for this year

Today we Did a whole bunch of activities. Second period class we went to the auditoriam for an assembly in honor of the great Mr. Little who will be going to Iraq, I think in Janurary. Katie, Brittany, and the other Katie Gave Mr. Little a scrap book that included the whole 8th grade!! And student councel bought him a camera so he could take pictures while he is away..We had Cedar Cliff Highschool color guard come in, the administrative person, Mr. Tribbit, Someone from the army and someone else.. We had speaches, poems songs and everything. The whole assembly I managed to hold back the tears but when it was over and I went on stage to hug him and just busted along with the rest of us. Like 1/4 of the 8th grade was up there.. all of my friends came up with me we all hugged eachother and a lot of us were very sad for the rest of the day.. Fyi: i never cry at school.. It just doesnt happen for any reason.. I have to be the strong one.. Well that didn't happen today!! I broke!

Later today we had a spelling and of course i wasnt in it.. We had some good competition this year. a 6th grade and an 8th grader were one of the last standing. The 8th grader won though. SO that was short.. And then came the Volleyball game which i got out of!! yay!!! It was pretty good. I just hung out with my good pal Eric and took pix with him while he video taped..I had people calling for me up and down the ying yang! video tape me! get a picture! can i take a pic? and then there were the girls who have a major obsessity problem or something.. They got all jelous cause i was next to him and he gave me the cam and i didnt get yelled at by ms. Reimer. You see, at the dance, a couple of weeks back, Eric finds out that like 3 girls like him. They followed him everywhere, bugged him like crazy and scared him to death! one even kissed him while dancing with him cause the girls wouldnt leave him be. Finally got away from them too!! i hid him in the bathroom for a while and then one of my other friends backed us up and said he was in the gym and so on.. But anyway, long story.. So Shelby and the crew were all front row for the volley game and Shell had my bunny.. OH! I didn't mention i Brought my bunny with me! the one that mrs. Umphrey gave me last year.. yea.. that one.. Shelby had it for a little while and she didnt wanna give it back! She doesn't know who it was from and she wanted to know badly! I finally got him back after a few min. Shelby wants him.. She can't have him cause he is actually still worth something after everything Mrs. Umphrey has and still is putting me through.. I just cant get over her rudeness period. She was totally rude today and yesterday.. Shes been that way with a lot of people now that i noticed.. Except for the popular and "stuck up" people dare I say.. A lot of my friends too, are now realizing how rude she has became. So.. I dunno.. So, anywho.. I'm going to try to post some pictures.. thats if i can figure out how to get them into links like Dolly can! maybe i'll ask Mike if i ever talk to him! haha Dolly hasnt been online so I cant really ask her..sigh.. Missing her so...

Guess what?

First the more important thing!! I saw Jenny Spicer today!! (aka Jenny Brown) She looks absolutely ADORABLE!!! She looks like shes about 14!! amazing what a hair cut can do!! But i still like her hair long!! Anyway, I miss her a lot!! maybe a little more than Dolly!! Yes MORE than Doll FACE!! I miss everythin' bout Jenny.. her smiles, her hellos, her laughing, her funny ways and just everything!! I dont know! I just miss her! So i saw her today on her cam and was totally happy!a lot lately u havent been doing a lot of smiling..But she sure did make me smile when i came home!!

And in further new, I am on the volley ball team for the game on wednesday! I can't play worth crap but 2 people dragged me off to the leader of the program and told me i'm the last member! They literally dragged me!! So now i'm on a team agains the falculty. (however u spell it!!)
any, gotta talk to that Jenny of mine!! shes awesome!! love ya always!

All day

This mornin' I woke up around 8 and was hopin Doll would call today since she didn't call yesterday..sigh... no luck.. I worked on my Social studies Project today from 8-4 my brain is beat! Then i finished up some christmas cards and a Unity Poem for Mrs. Umphrey. Yea, I decided to give her a lil somethin.. although she wont care. I couldn't just not do something for her for Christmas.. After messing up on that at least 4 times I just made it nice and simple!! The Unity Poem I'm giving her is the same poem I have her at the beginning of last year. Except for now, its a little prettier.. Nothing to be too proud of.. knowing she's not going to appreciate anything i would have given her..with the chance that shes still really pissed off at me.. blowing it off as much as possible! But! theres a but!! she did make my day last week when she sent me a hello through another student. now, the question would be would that be a nasty hello or a nice one. ummn.. now i'm on the phone with my greatest friend in the world! heaven!!!

home for a few

I'm only at my mom's for a few min. to do a few things before I leave.. I'll be at my dads tonight and Sat. and on the weekend i'm going to call my very greatest friend I have, The one and only Dolly!!! Training went well. Got my password and I guess i have to stay now.. so.. yea.. I also am working on a christmas project yet!!! ahh!! and i still have to do my social studies project. Joyous! anyway.. i gotta get this stuff done! lata ya'll! xoxo

In training

oh boy!! I'm waiting to be trained today with the rest of the apple core. This is because Ms. Reimer wants me to stay and I told her it was her decision. She decided she wanted me to stay. I didnt wanna have to go if she needed me for some reason. She is now explaining to us that some people will have to leave and if they don't they'll be very bored and will have to behave.. anyway... i have to do a safe boot.. back later! love ya dolly!!

OVERWHELMING!!!

OMGSH EVERYONE!! GUESS WHAT?!?!?!?! ahh!! C'mon guess!!!! well, DOLLY is in Virginia as i type!!! Everyone, be prepared for a totaled explosion tomorrow of me talking none stop bout her!! hehehe! Good news, she has made it to the states safely! bad news: after flights got canceled and graduations missed! sigh.. But I just called her and talked to her! how exciting!! although, with all the excitment and stuff i totally forgot my phone manners!!!! :'( it went something like.. hello? is Doll there? HI!!! how are you!?!? are u in the states?!?! answer.. yes and is this nikki?? i'm thinking.. oh geez.. phone manners nicole!! Dont forget about them! lol But talked to her for only 3 min.. sigh.. she was really tired.. and she had a long day.. read her blog too!! she told me she updated it.. and she must have just done it cause i've been looking every couple of min. since i touched the computer!!! I was hoping to get some sort of sign that she is safe, and she is!! All is well from what I was reading and heard.. no worries! and guess what my friends! you guys can't have her but i'm willing to share.. as soon as i get to see her first!! hehe

Anyway, I did find her number! It was laying behind my desk!! and I'm glad I looked there too!! I was totally spazing for the last few days since I couldn't find it.. I came home just to look for it!! I got yelled at and guilt tripped and everything.. It was soo worth it!! you wanna know why? Because now I can stop spazing, because i can call her, talk to her, see whats going on, and hear her voice!! oh! and add her to my phone book on my phone!!! It was a really exciting night after the long, long day! I can now sleep soundly knowing that she is fine. I thought i wouldnt be able to last the rest of the week if i didnt find her number! So now i'm good! its all good!! and better yet, I might even get to chill with her for a lil while!! oh yea!! not keeping my hopes up though because my mom said she'll think about it if it is ever going to be possible.. BUT I know i she will say yes the only other issue would be getting her here.. and its not going to be hard to convince my mom to say yes either.. (thats wat i'm hoping) because i have been talking about no one else but her since i came home in July!! no! JUNE!! yea.. june.. So my mom knows her fairly well.. She knows shes very independent, responsible, a councelor at camp, shes 22, very pretty, excellent voice, Sorta lives in Poland, shes someone who i talk about to my mom a lot, my mom knows what she looks like from pictures.. She knows shes short, sweet, very loving (obviously!!), I totally love her!! OH! and I'm eating only because of Dolly.. and i think my mom is liking that idea.. not like she really cares but she said she did at one time.. but i never know with my mom. I almost forgot to say.. I told my dad she was coming to the US and might be in Pa and he immediantly says that its ok if she comes over to the appartment instead of the house which smells like scank and looks like crap.. He said that, because He likes personality and that she loves me apparently, that its ok to use the appartment! i'm thinking! wait a minute here i never said she'd be comming to visit!! I just said shes coming to PA. but then after i think about it for the last couple of weeks i've been bragging and bragging!! so.. Exciting.. With my luck though, i doubt she'll be able to actually visit and stay.. If only I had a car.. but its about 9:30 now and i should be getting ready for bed because i wanna be able to get up on time to catch the bus. I've been soo tired that I slept in at least 3 times so far and had to have my dad or Ilgar take me to school..
For tomorrow, day 5 on my cycle schedule i have apple core so i will be trying to blog then if not sooner. Tomorrow night I will be at my dads and i will be able to call dolly after 7pm cause thats when it doesnt cost my mom anything! So maybe i'll call Dolly tomorrow.. and i'm not planning on being on the computer unless I'm at the library tomorrow night..What is my schedule for tomorrow anyway?hmm... Computer, Math, Science, Apple core, music, spanish, lunch, social studies and then Lang. arts. OH lookie! computer class is first! if i get a chance after my powerpoint draft thingy is done i might be able to blog then.. xoxoxo lata dudes and dudets! Tonight has been very exciting! the 5 min. of chit chat has been a major highlight of my day today and tomorrow! Doesn't Dolly feel special or what?!?! Even my friends who almost always hate everyone else i talk about and can't wait for me to shut up about them are actually interested in meeting this Dolly who sounds so great! I know Shell and Kaylee wanna meet her! It all depends on Dolly and what she wants to do. I can just say it would be totally great to see her! and more great if she meets my "friends" she might be shocked about who i hang out with during the day.. i dont know.. but it'd be fun to do some more bragging! i love to!

These are pix of a few of my friends.. At the bottom right is Keri, the next person up is kelsey then monica and christina and then kaylee and me sorta just hiding... latas for now 

library today

In Library- last mod rightn now.. we are working on the laptops and almost all of them are busted from all of our 8th graders. I'm still waiting for a call from Doll since I haven't found her number yet.. sigh.. I"m soo bored..My very special friend is having some self image issues and I just don't know what to tell her.

Thought I'd blog before I leave today... I'm going home on my dads bus and then probably hit the library. After that i'll be going home. Dolly!! call me please and thank you!! i can't check my mail to i get home so i dont know if u said any thing yet.. You didn't update your blog yet so i supose u haven't been to a computer yet. Loves to my girls! latas! xoxo

puter class

Here in puter class only 2 min. left of the mod. Tonight i'll be going to my dads cause of an appointment after school and then I'm going home to hopefully find dolly's Number still laying on my desk. That's if Shawn or my mom didnt pick it up and either move it or throw it away! fingers crossed!! Ok! lata! loves to Doll! Call me my Sweets! ;)

at school

I'm here at school right now and doing a whole bunch of nothingness. I'm patiently waiting for my dear Dolly to arrive in the states tonight. exactly 10 hours 45 min. and 40 sec. left according to this room's clock. I am in Apple Core, my present eco for days 2 and 5. Everyone is playing on computers also doing a whole bunch of nothingness. This is why i'm dropping out of this class at the end of the markinging period. Although, I am going to hate leaving Ms. reimer and my friend Eric here all by themselves. I will feel really bad for Ms. Reimer cause she has to put up with him for a whole 45 min.! So i'm here blogging since I can't view my website!! stupid filting system!

Oh, by the way, i am next door to mrs. Umphrey who hates both Eric and I now. On Friday I asked for a picture of her and she tells me know.. but I can clearly understand why. But i wanted to add her to my scrap book that i'm creating on my computer!! Also, i still haven't gotten over the whole issue yet. I don't think I can. just a fyi for the few of you who do care or look at this site! Anyway, i should be going pretty soon because this mod is over at 11:05 i still have about 2 hours and 55 min. left of the school day and then I'm off to a eye appoint ment at 5. and around 6:50 I have to be back in the building but in the band room for the concert at 7:30. and 5 min. after the concert starts Dolly lands in the states!!! whoohoo!!! yay!! yes!! OK i gotta go now!

Home at last

For the weekend I had decided to go to Maryland for the weekend. After getting there we headed straight for Chris' house(my auntie). we, Tim, my dad, and I had spent the afternoon putting some edging stuff around my auntie's apartment. So while Tim and dad were working on the sabbath, i was on my aunts bed reading a little. Since i didnt have my bible with me i was stuck with my school book.. I didn't really want to read but didnt want to work either so I chatted with Dolly on my phone for a little while. Trust me I didnt call her!! Geez can u imagine what my phone bill would be?!?! Sorry Doll, dont love you that much!! ;) jk After they were more than half way through, it was almost sunset and so I decided that i could start getting ready to help them. I wasnt much help but after they had finished with the last 2 walls I cleaned up and put all the furniture back the way it was. My dad and uncle Tim were very tired about time they finished and wanted me to hurry up!! How can I hurry when I'm cleaning?!?! I mean i LOVE to clean when it's not my house!! Tech. my mom's but.. you know! About another 25 minutes past and I'm not satisfied yet with what I had cleaned. now, while i'm cleaning my dad is rushing me to get done and Tim is telling me to let MY AUNTIE clean it all up!! now as I had said before, i was taught to leave something the way it was givin to you. (something like that) IO got all the sawdust cleaned up, straightened up her bed frame thingy, put all its furniture in its place, and cleaned up the bathroom. Didn't wash any dishes, Didn't vacuum or dust! I wasn't too pleased.. I dont like leaving my work not done to my expectations. no, actually i change my mind. I HATE leaving it not done to my satisfaction. My dad told me we had to go cause he was beat and wanted to sleep and we hadn't eatin dinner yet. The three of us went to my grandma's/Tim's house to stay for the night. Got there, ran to the puter woke it up and asked tim to get me onto some sort of thing where i could sign in too. did u know there could be a puter inside a puter? Amazing! My grandmother then woke up. She had called me out saying why didn't I go to her first? I'm thinking, how did u know that i was even there? cause my dad went to my uncles room with him. NOw, i thought she was sleeping when i came in. We talked for a little while then my dad came out and talked with her for a while while i went back into the puter and looked at doll's blog, cheked my mail and imed Dolly. A little while had past and we still hadn't eatin yet and decided we'd go out to eat! YUM! I dont know where we went but where ever we did go it was yummy! The only problem was what to eat that wouldnt be too much but not too less. YOu know what i mean? Finally decided on a filet of some kind. I ate.. steak, mash potatoes, a BIG salad, 2 glasses of ice tea and a piece of bread. It doesnt sound like a lot but it was!! I ate it all too!! For you DOll!! I personally wasn't hungry to begin with. I couldnt have munched on a salad and i would have been satasfied. But i can't do that. For two reasons, for ppl to stop complaining and worrying ect. and for Dorothy Ann Porawski. I could have easily just eating the salad and told Doll i had eatin more. but no.. Can't do that... not too good of a lier.. lol Finished DiNNER!!! whoo hoo!!! Didn't get sick either!! whoo hoo!!! oh yea!!

Sunday morning i was awake around 6 but i dont think i got up till maybe 8 because my AUNTIE came over!! by then everyone else was awake. I had gotten dresssed and was in the middle of putting some foundation on. (watever u wanna call it kris and DOLL!!) I turn around and Chris is at the door just about to walk in and i leap off from the couch and pretty much strangle Chris. Good morning!! lol She had brought me drawing stuff and a book to read!! JOY!! more books!! lol The team imediantly got to work on my gram's new bed that my dad got for her. A hospital bed!! It was heavy!! i got marks to prove it!! it got dropped on my arm while fixing a wheel!! ouch! But anyway, wat did we do? hmmn.. Got the bed together in place and went to home depot with auntie to get some stuff to move it again. When we returned everything was done. NO need for the moving men things. The rest of the day I chilled and then got punished for taking my camera to maryland. My mom told me not to take it to school. She never said not to take it to Maryland!! I some how managed to get out of that! Dont know how and i'm not going to ask!!

Finally!! around 6pm I get home to my own computer!! Guess what? Raquel was on the puter! YOu never see her on. and when u do you might, if your lucky, be able to chat with her! mission accomplished!!! yay! I only had a chance to talk with her for maybe 10 minutes. After that, it was homework time! It wasn't too hard since i Knew what my h/w was off the top of my head. I only had to look for and find the definitions to 20 words. not hard! Then came the word search that is hard! Word searches make my eyes hurt!! Next was spanish home and thanks to Christina she had reminded me about it!! I thought I only had ss and violin to do! I was wrong.. Spanish was next and she needed help. Her and I worked on Spanish together and Got my 10 sentences done in a jiffy! Mentally organize myself was next up!! while doing that I multi tasked and took my shower and brushed my teeth!! I have skill! ;) So next i think I might pick up a few articles of clothing and put my school work away! BIBLE TIME!! Then bed!! YES!!! something i really NEED!! SLEEP!! ok ya'll night!

Away for the Day

In maryland right now, at my grandma's place with my uncle just hanging out.. My dad and I came down so he could work on my auntie's floor. Yes, I know, on the sabbath.. I can't do anything about it. But my dad and uncle got that done today and I cleaned the place up after they said leave it for Chris to do. She ditched us and she deserves it. Is it not right to leave something the way you found it? I mean that's what i was taught. She has a wonderful lil apartment. It is so cute!! if only i took pictures.... Oh well...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JENNIE!

today, i took a picture of Christina and Kelsey!! arent they cute?!!?! Christina, is the one that looks funny!! you know with her hair and her hands and her tounge?!? and Kelsey's probably thinking what is wrong with you girl?!? lol love ya!

I turn to you has been proven

This morning When i woke up knowing my Dolly, the great friend she is would be online. We had a good talk about the deal with Mrs. Umphrey. As ya'll know, I've been pondering about how I should go about it and what to do. Well, She has helped me a lot! Dolly, i mean! Not mrs. U. lol But she explained and helped me, well, I'm not quite sure exactly.. She said to just blow it off. mainly cause it's been such a long time.. After she gave me things to think about like was i just trying to get revenge? Is there a reason why she said what she did? Would it help to "tell on her now?" What would it do? really? So I have decided that I will be talking with someone but it really wouldn't matter if i were to go the princible or even for my mom to call..(theres much more to it)

The reason why I say that the song is proven is because, as it says in the song,"When I'm lost in the rain,In your eyes I know I'll find the lightTo light my way.And when I'm scared,And losing ground,When my world is going crazy,You can turn it all around.And when I'm down you're there- pushing me to the top.You're always there,giving me all you've got.For a shield from the storm,For a friend, for a loveto keep me safe and warm I turn to you.For the strength to be strong,For the will to carry onFor everything you do,for everything that's true I turn to you. "

now tell me if i'm wrong, for those of you who do know Dolly in one way shape or form, SHELBY, now isnt this true? well, shelby knows shes incredibly sweet and nice and tries to help in every way possible! So Dolly, I'd just like to thank you for your help, kindess, and counseling. i love ya!

Decision made..

This is for the few of you who know: After the two days of fear, and worry my mom had finally made her decision with "the paper." you know the one with the very long talk and then getting taken out of gym and then mr. mcClymont and another person? yea well my mother decided no because she doesn't want the few people that would be involved to "know." Now for those of you who don't know it's not anything to be concerned about and not anything I really want to discuss but lets just say I must have issues and Teachers either hate me or like me friends either are putting me down and out or trying to get something out of me.. And I'm trying to find my real friends while being in this situation. Lets just say, I have much thinking to do but haven't had the time to do it really.. And in a way i'm afraid to really listen to myself, afraid i'll breakdown and my mom will catch me and then she'll ground me for crying and then theres the whole routine thing!! So i'm not going there!! and if i was grounded from puter that means NO Dolly, Christina, Jen, Jenny, or Auntie.. So thats not goin to happen!! lol and then thers the homework thing that pretty much requires me to use my puter.. so..yea!! i'll stop now!! (feel like im complaining.. lol) hehehehe Anyway, As i said b4 Today was Matt's birthday i gave him a call when I got up along with talking to Doll b4 she went to bed..good thing I woke got up when I did!! :)) now i'm going to talk to my very good friend Christina!! She has been by my side a lot lately! I am starting to figure out who a couple of my friends are. She got my back!! wuv ya! tootles!

Finally!!

It's finally the weekend!!! whoohoo!!! no more school!! No more teachers! No more councelors!! No more Sat!!! This week seemed as if it'd never end!! I mean in the beginning of the week, on tuesday, A teacher had called me up to be spoken to. You see, I had sent an e-mail to her telling her how I felt and asking her a few questions hoping for some answers in my confusion. We had had a small "fight" so to speak. It wasn't a big one but I thought I might want to share it with her while i had the courage since she had told me her feelings the week before. Wednessday- Test day: In the morning I had a computer test on my typing skills.. got an 90% on that.. Next was the math quiz! I think I did well on that one.. IT was on algerbric expressions and so on. After Math class I had Science class. In science we didn't do too much. I think we watched a movie with Bill Nye the Science Guy. After the movie we got our writing promt told to us. The question is What would happen if our poles were to change and how would it affect our seasons? Being hit with a million questions going off in my head I get to my computer when I get home and start researching! Find not too much. (Get back to this later) After Science I have my ECO, Apple core. Apple core is like a group of computer kids who go around the school fixing the computers since the teachers arent smart enough with the technology. So we are assigned to halls, 6th 7th and 8th grade, looking for issues. The remaing of class would organize carts, find updates on software, install stuff, check for laptop problems, and find answers to questions that teachers have asked our teacher earlier in the week. Next came music!! Oh joy!! mrs. Boyer!! lol ;) Test time again!! we had a test on Motzart. Like his whole history or something. After to class periods of dealing with her we had Mrs. Madaffari, The cool teacher! Spanish class, usually my favorite class on the odd days. (1,3,5) Anyway, we did the usual. We practiced conjugating -ir, -ar, -er verbs. Not too hard... There went most of my day. After Spanish came lunch! my all time favorite!! Do nothing time!! my time!! and then Gossip time...After my visit with the teachers with my friends tagging along, We headed for the lunch line - about time we get there there isn't much of a line left. Ate a little bit of a lunch.. Next came History, the class I don't like... I mean I like to learn but not about my teacher's history. Sat through a class of that took a few notes on a few things got homework and was told that there would be a quiz comming up, my projects due on the ninth and so on.. The rest of the week went as usual. Class to class. And before lunch went to through the halls finding stuff to do teachers to chat with. you know.. Thursday though, I got a talk with some counselors. not a biggie i guess.. Went home, had a long talk with my mom.. yea, same routine.. when it comes to my school interfering with home.. or some sort of small problem that my mom makes a HUGE deal out of.. wel.. I dunno.. For those of you who do know what I'm talking about I dont have to explain. So went to school Friday, the first person that comes up to me is the person who talked with me the day before. asked a few questions and on with my day I went. Got home, called my dad. Did my homework, chatted.. Oh did i mention that on thursday i wasn't allowed to do my homework?? yea!! My mother said I wasn't allowed to do it!! and then told me i was getting takin out of that school and i'm going to be put into BMA asap. Exciting but not.. Anyway, chatted with my Auntie about the science question! and she finds me answers!!! She's a genius!! lolol She calls me up within the next min all excited about this question because she is interested or something like that. I mean she NEVER calls!! but then no one calls for me unless they need my help with something.. that's if they can't get to the puter. Now, it's Friday night, my sabbath, and my mom comes in and says we have to go out and get a camera for my candles. I'm thinking, Mother dearest, It's friday for heaven sakes.. Well i know my mom she doesn't care what day it is if she wants something she has to get it right then and there.. So i didnt reject.. Also thinking, well It IS a camera!! whoohoo!! but then, It's Friday my sabbath has already started.. Ended up leaving around 8pm!! got bak around 9.. thats a little late to be out I think.. well, shopping anyway.. Now being the seventh day adventist christian I am I try not to do anything that I shouldn't that my mom hasn't told me to do. So we get to Walmart, shawn with us and he sees a car and we tell him he can't right now when he leaves with us he can ride in it.. So he throws a huge tantrum. Now, embarrased enough to even be out with my mother shawn add's to it. His tantrum is like a show. there is people among people staring at us and I'm there with my mom trying to get him to stop.. after the next 10 min. I give up and walk away... I'm like mom its up to you now!! you raised this freak! My lil bro, is very deceaving... Looks arent everything!!! he may be cute but he's a devil!! So my mom is getting him calmed down or whatever.. She finds me and We pick a camera out.. leave.. now, i'm home and she wants me to install it and take pictures of the candles all in the same night!! so i don't get to bed till almost one.. not good.. Didn't read my bible, didnt get my homeowork done before sunset, and didn't read my other book.. this is wat happens when your world practically revolves around your mothers schedule. So it gets installed and so on and it looks pretty nice!! here's a picture of one candle.. i'm going to try to post it.. can't promise anything though.. I'll have to ask Doll what to do.. BTW i love you Dorothy!!
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY MATTHEW!