It's Christmas Eve and I haven't done anything but anything besides getting Christmas Presents ready.. Tomorrow around 6 i'm supposed to be watching my two cousins, the annoying ones, with my mother dearest...Still wondering how in the world i'm supposed to get this small present to Doll and my mom wants me to go see Ali, matt, and rai on christmas!! come on!! who wants to see their teacher on christmas day?!?! Seriously?! Lol no affense my teachers out there! I love you dearly but I bet none of ya wanna put up with any kid thats not their on on Christmas. But anyway, I did pretty much a whole bunch of nothingness most of the night. I was at my computer, ate a salad, waited for someone to get online or maybe someone to call.. no one.. I called my uncle hes with his friend, Jessica. My auntie is in Canada for the next two weeks, No answer from Kaylee, No answer from Dolly or Patti, Moni was out, Teachers don't wanna hear from me most likely.. Jen went to bed early, Andi is away, Deb wasn't home and she wont be til 2pm tom., and I think thats everyone that I called.. So I waited a little while for Doll face to call. no luck there.. waited a few min.. gave up.. She's most likely either sleeping by 9pm or having some family time or something.. Not too worried bout it.. Shes safe and sound. My dad is at his house, all alone on Christmas Eve and he's not comming over for Christmas this year because my mother and dad are in a fight. So its pointless really...My mom's whole side of the family should be down at my grandmother's house by 4pm tomorrow. We will exchange gifts and hang out for a little while.. Me, be bored to death.. I'll have like 21 little cousins over, not one of them my age and the one thats close to my age, Emily, has been a lil "mean" lately.. Or something of that sort. I got Chocolate for my aunts, only 4 of them on this side thank God! So i have 3 uncles, 4 aunts, 3 grandmothers(1 ofwhich can't come up cause of illness), 21-23 cousins ( a few who i dont know yet..), no grandfathers(all died when i was lil'), 1 bro, 1 mother by blood, 1 dad whos not going to be there, 3-4 dogs with us, all of my cats outside, presents. And in my mind will be everyone i love dearly! Wishing they were with me... One day..sigh.. When I get a house, for Christmas i want everyone that i love with me. But for now, only in my heart..
For the few people who read this these small messages are for you for the end of the year:
Jen. B: sweetie, I love you! I don't want anything ever to happen to you. If only you'd give it to me.. sigh.. God has a plan for you and you have convinced me in some way.. But I wish that he didnt give it to you.. I don't know how long i've known you but you've become very close to my heart and hopefully, you'll come back in the spring! God has given you so many friends who love you as much as I do and have known you even longer than I. All I hope is you have a wonderful Christmas! you will be in my thoughts through out the day.
Jenny S.: (shes most likely not even going to come to my blog but what the heck!!) oh!! Jenny SPICER!! How you have changed! and in a great way I might add!! Lets just say you were the person who lead me to God. You were the one who was my inspiration, you were the one I looked for when going to camp. Except for last year knowing you wouldnt be there...sigh... I got over it quickly though!! Also, keeping in mind, the very Jenny Brown would soon be changing into a Jenny Spicer!! :)) There isn't much to say.. All I can say is that i love you very much and that you have been my idol so to speak for 3 years now! logest ANYONE has ever been something so great to me! Really!! usually I find someone better within a few months or less..YOu will ALWAYS have a special place in my heart and Dolly will NEVER replace you! i assure you!! I PROMISE!! But you both have been great to me in ways you don't know..
Dolly: Now for you!! yes, you are 3rd.. But only because you know how much i love you!! Lets just say you and I have a lot of things in common. YOu and Jenny S. are very special. You have grown on me! I know the moment I was even told about you you were going to be great! But I never thought we would be good friends like we are.. Well at least you are my great friend but i don't know what I am to you. (not like its bad or nething ya know) ;) I don't know what to say that you don't already know.. So i made it short for you! DOLLY, I LOVE YA! I love your voice and your hair too! lol ;)
well.. those are the main three people for now.. maybe more people later.. I don't know yet.. my fingers are sore, my eyes are heavy and I gotta be up in 6 hours.. Merry Christmas ya'll!! God Bless! May God be wit ya'll!! God rules! And Satan is a jerk! LOL
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