TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:	nikki
Birthday:	feb. 3
Birthplace:	Gaithersburg, MD
Current Location:	Mech. PA
Eye Color:	Brown
Hair Color:	Brown
Height:	5'1"
Right Handed or Left Handed:	Right
Your Heritage:	Thai, Indian
The Shoes You Wore Today:	black sneakers
Your Weakness:	hmmn.. I have a lot of them.. :$
Your Fears:	Hurting someone deeply
Your Perfect Pizza:	Meat lovers and buffalo wing something...
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	no caffiene..
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	lol
Thoughts First Waking Up:	can't i sleep?
Your Best Physical Feature:	i dunno...
Your Bedtime:	depends if i'm reading or chatting
Your Most Missed Memory:	anything to do with Camp
Pepsi or Coke:	pepsi?
MacDonalds or Burger King:	Neither!
Single or Group Dates:	either are fun (thats if i ever go out!)
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	anything tea
Chocolate or Vanilla:	vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee:	cappuccino
Do you Smoke:	nope
Do you Swear:	no
Do you Sing:	yes
Do you Shower Daily:	yes
Have you Been in Love:	yes
Do you want to go to College:	of course!
Do you want to get Married:	some day...
Do you belive in yourself:	depends...
Do you get Motion Sickness:	not really..
Do you think you are Attractive:	possibly...
Are you a Health Freak:	sometimes
Do you get along with your Parents:	not really
Do you like Thunderstorms:	love them with a passion!!
Do you play an Instrument:	yes, Violin, a lil piano
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	no
In the past month have you Smoked:	no
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	no
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	yes
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	no
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	no.. sadly...
In the past month have you been on Stage:	yes
In the past month have you been Dumped:	no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	no but i'd like to sometime..
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	no
Ever been called a Tease:	yes
Ever been Beaten up:	no
Ever Shoplifted:	no
How do you want to Die:	umm.. saving someone??
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	teach, social worker something like that..
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	too many...
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Where was I?

I was indeed not available to a computer and I wish i could have let ya'll know before I left that i wasn't going to be home all week long. Well, I wasn't. I was at my dad's taking care of my grandma Ampon. I was cleaning and doing laundry and I was making Lobster alfredo (that was last night). BUT while i was there and i DID have free time I went to the post office twice. Once to mail out a letter and the second time to mail out a very special package. I went to wally world and did a little bit of shopping.. and then I went to Michaels and did some shopping. I got double sided tape and photo squares (like emily's) and I was tempted to get a cropper although i have a cutting board that works just fine. Thus allowing me to start my scrapbook the moment i returned to my dads apt. So for the next two days i worked on my fab. scrapbook. I completed 6 pages and there are 2 pages still in progress. one which is Emily yancers because i promised her. She has one of the cutest pages! Simple but cute. Emily has a total of...3 pages just for her and 3 pages that have at least a picture of her in it. :D oh! and i did a Gina dedicatioin page. I almost forgot about that.. I'm still working on Dolly's dedication page. I dont have all the stuff i need for it.. anyway thats what i did.

When I returned I was welcomed by 13 emails by my most loved people! (not including Emily, she never EVER talks to me.. She hates me.. i'm almost certain..) I spent the morning reading my wonderful emails and printing out two of them.. One that was 4pages long!! My marvelous Katie sent it and i'm still working on it!

Up til' Midnight perhaps? Maybe past..

School is officially out for the rest of this year until 2006! Now that school is done with for now I may stay up as long as I please! I can talk to people in the wee hours of the morning, read for as long as I like and play with my violin as long as I like. I can sleep in and I can clean my room (which REALLY needs it!!) I can play with my brother, and talk to my friends too! So now that I have this freedom for a short while I will take full advantage of it! I can work on my scrapbook from camp, and i never thought I would really continue it either..But i certainly dont want to wait another five years to finish it! ALl i need is some pictures from my oh so sweet Brad! :))Though there is a downfall... I have another assignment from Writer's Workshop and I haven't yet decided what I wanted to do (as always). BUT theres another upside! I might go to Maryland for a day or two, I havent asked my parents yet though. My grams should be coming to PA until the 3rd so if i did go down i'd prob. stay with my auntie! that would be AWESOME! OH! i forgot to mention that my dearest auntie might stop in tomorrow. :)) This will be the first EVER!
In case I don't blog again... I wish you ALL Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!
So if you are willing to stay up and talk with me give me a holla! Or if you just wanna chat for a little while, I'll be all ears. I'm out!

These are Precious moments

I see your eyes are troubled, care to share your time with me? This quote is one of my favorites today.

Anway, i'm in the process of actually starting my personal essay! In the past hour i've accomplished on whole sentence!! I'm at such a great start! aren't I? rough draft is due wednesday. ummn.. well i guess i'm gonna go actually because i really do need to get started on this rough draft.. I will write a blog out later on tonight possibly and i'll type it up as soon as i have a chance to do so.
Until then, I wish you ALL Merry Christmas!!
I also send my love to miss katie, Emily, Dolly, Laura and Mr. Peter, Jeremy, Frank, Ryan, and doll's hot Bro!! ;) ok i'm off for now! tootles!

a quick side note

ok so the last 2 posts weren't nearly as bad as I thought they would be. I guess its because i spent all my energy on my mom. That's what I'll blame it on anyway! ;)

To contintue...

For the remaining of the morning I tried hard to stay out of my grandma’s sight. She didn’t seem to be in a good mood this morning. She and I are terribly alike it sometimes scares me. She and I both do not want to be bothered in the morning. By the time she was done with whatever she wanted to get done with whatever she wanted to get done she seemed to be in a better mood.

When she left to go to the store I finished another book and then kept working on my story. I called dad to find out what mom told him about going to Maryland too. He said that mom called at 3am (she calls at all hours of the day) to tell him we were going to be leaving at 9am for Maryland. I then informed him we were not going like we planned but he said he needed to go down to make sure she was going to be in good health. He had already asked my mom to take me but she said no.

So anyway, even though mom and I weren’t going down to Maryland she must have spent the entire day ‘out’. When I did finally go up home to type up the story due for class tomorrow she wasn’t home. She did come home later on though… not too long after me either. She was the way she usually is when she comes home from being ‘out’. This did not please me any more. I would have to sit and listen to her accuse me of things that I was not guilty of and her talking would require my full attention thus not allowing me to type my story. I tried hard to bite my tongue… but I failed… The only thing I did manage to accomplish was supposedly lying to her, getting grounded for I don’t know what and I don’t know what from, and a tiny bit of yelling and cursing. I always seem to fail when it comes to things such as not using potty mouth, drinking caffeine and not keeping my trap shut. How ever do I manage? I’m plainly not happy with myself. I try to be good, I really do! I sometimes do not know how some people do it. -Only through Him.

I said I'd try

It is not easy being good, you know, especially when you are among people who must find it amusing to see one be on the verge of raging out of control. I daresay I am not a person to quarrel with. If you have ever been in that position with me I am terribly sorry, especially if you have been so unlucky to quarrel with me today. My patience was short, indeed. Now, my readers, if you wish you may now leave while I do some venting. I do warn you though as I have failed to do in the past.

It started at 5:30 this morning, at the butt crack of dawn. My alarm went off. I reached for my phone and smiled as I saw a ‘Golden’ background on it. It was one a friend had shared with me. I turned it off and then lay in bed for another few moments while I decided whether to stay in bed to go to Maryland later in the morning or if I should just go to school and if we were indeed going to go to Maryland today then they could call for me at school. I did not want to miss another moment of school. It is already hard to miss what I have. By the time I do return it will take me a while to actually get the information I need from my teachers to do my make-up work and until I review everything I missed I will be sitting in a few classes completely lost thus making it harder to catch up on just one day.

Around 8:30 my grandma came in to inform me that my mom had supposedly said that were not going to Maryland and she had told me this yesterday. This is certainly not what she had said just the previous day. She said that even though her car was not in the best shape to do any long distance traveling if my grandmother wanted us in Maryland because she’s in the hospital we would go. Allow me to fill you in. I did get the strength (because I was crying on the chance of my grandma not making it out of the hospital) to call her and I asked her if she wanted us down there as much as I wanted to be by her side. She said she did want us to come down. Anyway, by now I was well into my first class but I could still go into school. No, I was unable to go on the account of my mom not being home to take me and my grandma, I know, would unwilling me take me. (that’s after she spends 30minutes complaining to me) 8:30am and I was already about to argue with my grandma on what was said and what was not said.

I will explain more later.. I must go..

A week or so has come and gone now and I still have no subject to write about.. my friend, Nicole told me to do another free write just after i did one in class. I didn't enjoy writing what I was but it was all I had.. I will say it was something that had recently happened in a conversation. That is what thrilled me the least. I try to not write about other people but latelys that's what it's been coming down to, writing about them. The first one I wrote in the 1st person and the second one was in 3rd person and I did not find either something that will ever leave from my hands. In a way I feel like that woman from A window across the river except for I already know it's about them or something of that kind. :(

Tomorrow is my day of shopping! I'm going out for stamps, stuff for my new project, a nursing uniform, a new pair of silky pj bottoms, and i'm soo tempted to go find something for my dearest Doll... sigh... I am still on a hunt for something for Katie but if i don't find anything this round then i guess i'm bum out of luck. another sigh.. I don't know what she likes.. I know she likes horses and thats about it.. anything country. I've given up on finding something for Emily... cousin emily is too hard to shop for even though i got her one thing already, and camp Emily i don't know what she likes and I don't know where she is either.. what is a girl to do?

What i have is between a sinus infection and an ear infection. I'm hoping it'll go away soon.. I wanna swim this week. My friend said she'd bring in some plugs for my ears. :)

That's all folks

I was here

I know i said i wouldn't be around on mondays or fridays but here i am. I just wanted to let ya'll know i'm doin well. Thinkin bout Kt and getting that CD of hers... Also been thinking about the phrase "Got up dog?" and its return saying. Good times... Sorta missing Jeremy and Frank.. Only the people who know them truely know how much fun they are! :*

Anyway i'm still working on my story but i finished my write-up for class. :D I'm still reading Jude and I started another book too..

So now I must go... I gotta get crackin on this story! Then i'll go stretch for a little while to get relaxed....

last night

i had a wonderful night!! I can't say why but i did! I spent the majority of it up at my computer thinking about my story but not writing anything, and talking to a someone. I got her. It was mean though... and i sorta feel bad for doing it... But she knows i love her and always will.. I cannot get mad at her nor is it possible for her to hurt me. I was at first shocked that she would stay up that long, for well.... it will remain in my head while the rest of you guess... Anyway, to that someone, I love you, you are beautiful!! you are a beautiful beast!! ;) i don't care what you look like i still love you and know you are beautiful! i mean c'mon... look in the mirror... it's you we are talking about...
Although i didn't get crap done i'm glad i spent all night right here at my desk with papers scattered everywhere, laundry waiting to get done and stories waiting to be written. I'm glad i have a nameless friend who i love very much.. lets do some recalling.. since i saved THIS conversation..it's 27pages long! i'd clean this entire house, my grandma's house, do roofing, try my darnest to get As in every class, i'd start violin again, i'd get new strings for my violin too, i'd tutor, i'd sing, i'd dance, i'd bend every which way humanly possible. i'd give her a certain hottie (Jeremy, even though i love him! ;), i'd get up, go to school, come home and go to work, come home around 8 get h/w done, clean up houses, and go to bed... i'd skip my reading.. i'd get rid of ALL my teddy bears... and barbie dolls and porcelain dolls, i'd jump of a bridge!! with a bundgy cord of course so i could live to see this person. now, keep in mind i'd prob. do the same for let see... Jen. B if i could find a cure for crohn's, for Gina, Dolly, Jenny,Jeremy, Frank, Katie and Emily if the need be, if it would make their lives better i'd prob. sacrifice myself if it weren't such a sin..


Dear Jeremy!
oh my Jeremy! i didn't even realize you read my blog. if i could have put you but at the same spot i would have! you BOTH are amazing!!! but if it matters to you that much i'll put you FIRST on my list!!! :D You'd beat Katie! It was just when ever i thought of you.. when thers Frank there's Jeremy.. Be happy you are in a frame on my dresser and you are in my binder with your own page AND you're in my notes everynow and again when i get bored in class....
missin' you much! love ya!

Peter,
I thought about putting you on my list but i'm trying to stop living such a dangerous life! ;)

I didn't know a whole 3 or 4 people actually read my blog from time to time! I will have to find more exciting things to write about!

I will update again once i get home cause i have something saved there on my puter but i just wanted to say hi and tell my Doll i love her! xoxoxoxo ok ppl have a good day today. I should be around tonight!
Right now i'm busy doing research on the Planned Parenthood v. Casey in Civics class. The question the supreme court had to consider was that if a woman wanted an abortion should they have to wait one day and if they weren't 18 years of age they woulod have to get a parents consent but if the woman was married she'd have to notify her husband and her intention of the abortion.

You are beautiful Dolly!!! and remember you could never hurt me cause i know you would never intentionally do that!:D kocham cie

A headache a day

everyday when i sit down and start writing at the computer i get this throbing headache... I just started taking something for it yesterday cause otherwise i'd probably be laying down doing nothing valuable with my time. I've been working on my story for who knows how long... its just now getting started and most of the story thus far has to do with the horses at camp and the trails there. Theres not much of a plot to it right now but its forming.. my interview writing is still in the process of being written down on paper.

I sadly have nothing more to say for today other than missing my Katie, My Emily, my Erin and my Dolly...i also miss reading good books... i'm boud to find one soon...

Also, when i do go to the library i'm going to try to hit the mall again soon so tell me what you want for christmas and i'll try my best to get it for you!!(Dolly and katie) i can't make a good decisioin on my own this year! :'(