Over the past several months there has been many, many issues arising in this church and over those months, all I’ve done is sit and listen; well, its not enough to sit and do nothing, now is it?
I warn you now to brace yourselves because this may be brutal and quite honest. I’ve heard and seen what has been going on in this church and frankly, I don’t like it and I’m sure many of you don’t either. As I stand in front of you, let me begin by saying that I know I may only be fifteen years old and I don’t have a position in this church but I have a voice and I feel it needs to be used for this purpose. Second, I am going to be as general as possible, so I’m not going to point out individuals and tell each of you what’s wrong and so on. Right now, I want your focus to be on what I’m saying and I hope all of you will listen, you may not agree, but at least listen to what I have to say.
I feel as if this church is falling apart because of our personal differences. Alas not everyone can get along with each other. Why should we quarrel with one another? We are here for the purpose of God; to worship him, praise him and learn about him. We are here to sanctify his holy day.
“I appeal to you, brothers, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ, that all of you agree with one another so that there may be no divisions among you and that you may be perfectly united in mind and thought. “ 1st Corinthians 1:10
To argue what is right and wrong- I think that is the main focus of all the quarreling amongst the church is. We argue about food, clothes, how people should act inside and out, what they should do in their love lives and then condemn them for doing what they think is right and what is right with the Lord. We are prone to make mistakes and God lets us make them to learn from them, am I right? We argue about how the churched should be run, and by what standards it should be run by. We argue about the positions in the church and whether or not the people nominated for them ‘deserve’ that position. God tells us to go to him in prayer with our problems first- not to each other. I don’t know if you go to him first or not, I’m just recognizing what it is that God has said in his writings. Once again, our purpose is not to fight with everybody in the church but to focus on God and all his glory and good works and from those we should learn what we should do when we are in need of guidance. Study his word, and u shall find what u are in search of.
It hurts me to see you arguing amongst yourselves over things that do not matter. Why do we criticize others and judge them? Does it not say that we should not judge? God is the only one to judge and it will come soon enough. He can do enough judging for every single one of us. Plus, we are not to judge, I believe, because we are no better than our brothers and sisters. Not one of us sitting here today is perfect. How many of you have the perfect spouse, perfect house, perfect patience, perfect clothes, and perfect temperament and so on? We are not here to put others down, to contradict the church and their rules, tell what they should and shouldn’t do for their own sake and own image; we are here to focus on God, not one another.
“Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? How can you say to your brother, ‘Brother, let me take that speck out of your eye,’ when you yourself fail to see the plank in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother’s eye” Luke 6:41-42
“Therefore, as God’s chosen people, hold and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.” Colossians 3:12-15
Church is not the place to quarrel with each other. I’m not saying to hide all of our problems, just to approach it with love and reason. My point is we should criticize others. We have our own faults too. Those whom we judge will also judge us. Take the problems of yours to the Lord and he will deal with them as he thinks is suitable and in his own time.
“Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as Christ God forgave you.” Ephesians 4:32
Friday, February 24, 2006
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
At 7 last night had a spark of inspiration to write but between then and now i have lost that inspiration of what it was i was going to blog about.
As of lately i've started Anthem by Ayn Rand for school and have put down beautiful child, the book i've been trying to finish for the past 3 or 4 weeks now! And i think i have some how mananged to break my sci. teacher's apple by opening it, looking at an opera a-z cd and closing it again. He put it away and later got it back out and it appears to be sleeping but it won't wake up.. Ummn.. about 5minutes later i find out my bus driver will no longer be my bus driver! he is done by the end of the week! which is both a good and bad thing because he wasn't a very fair driver.
A few days ago i discovered a path in my backyard that leads to a back road somewhere.. yesterday I ventured though it with my puppy Shadow and found that it becomes another person's driveway and goes out to the road... I didn't even know there were ppl behind us because of the woods! who knew!
Ummn.. on the more downish side, mother's been in one of her moods and has been sortive nosier than usual. She's been impling many things but hasnt actually accused me of them just yet. I sense some old problems are arising again too..
and today.. I was talking to one of my friends in child development class and about all this money i supposedly have (i had a bunch of ones in my wallet that i was trying to count so i know what i can spend and what i can't..) and how i get soo much and what i do with it and everything. And being the pretty open person that i am they soon found out and was amazed by the fact that i buy my own clothes for the most part, get my own personal supplies, pay a bill or two here and there for my mother and buy my own lunch and stuff.. While they're sitting there being amazed i'm thinking they must get many things done for them and never recieve money of their own to spend on things they need. They don't handle at least some of their own money?? I suppose i must be around many ppl who are more ?independent/self-reliant? than the ones in my school. She found it hard too.. And i tried to explain its not and that the earlier the age that you start being responsible for your own money the better you'll be at money management later and in the 'real world'. I went on to tell her about BMA as i've been doing a lot and she's like how are u paying for that!?!! There's a thing called work, where u get an income, although this doesnt go straight to me but go directly to the school. And the other part comes in from the conference and they help pay as well so its not all loaded on me. its interesting that other ppl find it interesting when its just like someone else.. Cultural diffrence?
As of lately i've started Anthem by Ayn Rand for school and have put down beautiful child, the book i've been trying to finish for the past 3 or 4 weeks now! And i think i have some how mananged to break my sci. teacher's apple by opening it, looking at an opera a-z cd and closing it again. He put it away and later got it back out and it appears to be sleeping but it won't wake up.. Ummn.. about 5minutes later i find out my bus driver will no longer be my bus driver! he is done by the end of the week! which is both a good and bad thing because he wasn't a very fair driver.
A few days ago i discovered a path in my backyard that leads to a back road somewhere.. yesterday I ventured though it with my puppy Shadow and found that it becomes another person's driveway and goes out to the road... I didn't even know there were ppl behind us because of the woods! who knew!
Ummn.. on the more downish side, mother's been in one of her moods and has been sortive nosier than usual. She's been impling many things but hasnt actually accused me of them just yet. I sense some old problems are arising again too..
and today.. I was talking to one of my friends in child development class and about all this money i supposedly have (i had a bunch of ones in my wallet that i was trying to count so i know what i can spend and what i can't..) and how i get soo much and what i do with it and everything. And being the pretty open person that i am they soon found out and was amazed by the fact that i buy my own clothes for the most part, get my own personal supplies, pay a bill or two here and there for my mother and buy my own lunch and stuff.. While they're sitting there being amazed i'm thinking they must get many things done for them and never recieve money of their own to spend on things they need. They don't handle at least some of their own money?? I suppose i must be around many ppl who are more ?independent/self-reliant? than the ones in my school. She found it hard too.. And i tried to explain its not and that the earlier the age that you start being responsible for your own money the better you'll be at money management later and in the 'real world'. I went on to tell her about BMA as i've been doing a lot and she's like how are u paying for that!?!! There's a thing called work, where u get an income, although this doesnt go straight to me but go directly to the school. And the other part comes in from the conference and they help pay as well so its not all loaded on me. its interesting that other ppl find it interesting when its just like someone else.. Cultural diffrence?
Monday, February 20, 2006
| The Keys to Your Heart |
 You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy. You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is 100%. You are not suited for a monogamous relationship. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted. |
Sunday, February 19, 2006
I may be small but i know how to take charge
Over the past several months there has been many, many issues in my church and over those months all i've been doing is sitting and listening, and well, its just not enough.
rough draft to church cong. more like notes on what i want to say
This is going to probably be brutal so brace yourselves. Over the past few months i have seen and heard what has been going on in this church and frankly I dont like it and i'm sure many of you dont either. Let me begin by saying that i know i am only 15 and I dont have much of a place in this church but what i have to say is important and it needs to be said to all of you. I am going to be as general as possible, so i'm not going to point out indivuals and neither are any of you. Your focus right now is what I'm saying and I want you all to listen, you may not agree but at least listen.
Second, The last thing I want is this church to fall apart because no one can get along in some way. We are not here to fight and argue about what's right and whats wrong. And we are not here to criticize others in any way, whether it be how they live, what they wear, where they go, what they do with their time, who they live with etc. Our focus is on God,not eachother. Plus, who are we to judge? yes, I know its an old saying but it applies quite well. God can do plenty of judging for all of us. No one knows the circumstances of each individual either. We don't know what's going on in their personal lives all the time and we dont know whats just happened to them.
And what ever happened to if you don't have anything nice to say don't say it at all?!?! We need to work out our problems.
do more later.. i can't think!
rough draft to church cong. more like notes on what i want to say
This is going to probably be brutal so brace yourselves. Over the past few months i have seen and heard what has been going on in this church and frankly I dont like it and i'm sure many of you dont either. Let me begin by saying that i know i am only 15 and I dont have much of a place in this church but what i have to say is important and it needs to be said to all of you. I am going to be as general as possible, so i'm not going to point out indivuals and neither are any of you. Your focus right now is what I'm saying and I want you all to listen, you may not agree but at least listen.
Second, The last thing I want is this church to fall apart because no one can get along in some way. We are not here to fight and argue about what's right and whats wrong. And we are not here to criticize others in any way, whether it be how they live, what they wear, where they go, what they do with their time, who they live with etc. Our focus is on God,not eachother. Plus, who are we to judge? yes, I know its an old saying but it applies quite well. God can do plenty of judging for all of us. No one knows the circumstances of each individual either. We don't know what's going on in their personal lives all the time and we dont know whats just happened to them.
And what ever happened to if you don't have anything nice to say don't say it at all?!?! We need to work out our problems.
do more later.. i can't think!
My pirate name is:
Mad Bess Kidd
Every pirate is a little bit crazy. You, though, are more than just a little bit. Even though you're not always the traditional swaggering gallant, your steadiness and planning make you a fine, reliable pirate. Arr!
Get your own pirate name from fidius.org.
Friday, February 17, 2006
As of last night, I want to learn to dance! Ok, not the kind of Dancing that i'm going to teach a certain someone but the ballroom dancing. It looks fun and so that means I want to learn it.. All I need is a dancing partner and a trip to lemoyne every week and I'll be an expert in no time! ;) So many things I want to do and no time to do them. Someday.
http://www.pbs.org/weta/washingtonweek/voices/200204/0429health.html
http://www.nostigma.org/1on11.html
http://www.nostigma.org/ross_experiences.htm
Going to another topic completely, on thursday, we had a motivational speaker. Unike the others, he had something important to say,something differnt. His presentation was on Depression and stereotypes. In his speach he had my full attention, and not just because he was cute. :P First, he went into say that he's not here to be boring and he's not going to act like "hi my name is Ross,and you shouldn't do drugs and alcohol, they're bad for you" type of thing.. He was at my school to talk about all the positive things about Depression and mental issues. He was here to stop stereotyping mental issues. What caught my attention, however, was what he said about people not expressing their feelings unless they were drunk or high. We don't usually tell people our problems and how we feel because it's a sign of weekness, he says. He made a point that however it is you deal with your problems, do it in a positive manner, not harming yourself or others. Oh, did you know that most of the people who have Depression are more likely to hurt themselves before they will another person? All the news talks about is people hurting everyone else and not themselves. Anyway, what caught me was that people don't share how they feel and that the only way to help your depression is to do something about it. Whether it be writing it down or talking to someone you care about you need to get it out, in a positive manner. There isn't much to say about it that I could put into the right words. All i know is that I have found my new love! ;)
http://www.pbs.org/weta/washingtonweek/voices/200204/0429health.html
http://www.nostigma.org/1on11.html
http://www.nostigma.org/ross_experiences.htm
Going to another topic completely, on thursday, we had a motivational speaker. Unike the others, he had something important to say,something differnt. His presentation was on Depression and stereotypes. In his speach he had my full attention, and not just because he was cute. :P First, he went into say that he's not here to be boring and he's not going to act like "hi my name is Ross,and you shouldn't do drugs and alcohol, they're bad for you" type of thing.. He was at my school to talk about all the positive things about Depression and mental issues. He was here to stop stereotyping mental issues. What caught my attention, however, was what he said about people not expressing their feelings unless they were drunk or high. We don't usually tell people our problems and how we feel because it's a sign of weekness, he says. He made a point that however it is you deal with your problems, do it in a positive manner, not harming yourself or others. Oh, did you know that most of the people who have Depression are more likely to hurt themselves before they will another person? All the news talks about is people hurting everyone else and not themselves. Anyway, what caught me was that people don't share how they feel and that the only way to help your depression is to do something about it. Whether it be writing it down or talking to someone you care about you need to get it out, in a positive manner. There isn't much to say about it that I could put into the right words. All i know is that I have found my new love! ;)
a little missunderstanding
I will write only to imform you all that it is NOT Emily Y. that i was referring to!I assure you all that it's not that Emily! I must have confused miss Dorota on which Emiliy.. The Emily I meant was my cousin Emily. I don't think that Emily Y. the counselor would ever even think about picking up Harry Potter! But Then again, I can not say because I am not her. But I trust that she wouldn't! THE Emily read Harry Potter?? That's crazy!
have a happy sabbath!
PS Prani Prezes, you want to explain to me??
my love (Olney Theater:self reminder)
have a happy sabbath!
PS Prani Prezes, you want to explain to me??
my love (Olney Theater:self reminder)
Thursday, February 16, 2006
I wonder if she cares
Since January 10th I have not seen one update from my dear and ever so beautiful Emily Suzanne…I am honestly bummed out about this. I know I said I wasn’t going to look at her blog anymore but how can I not? It’s been made part of my daily routine! It’s also hard to stop because she’s sorta made a mark on me! - Something similar to Katie and Dolly and Gina and Jen but different. But anyway, Miss Emily, where ever you may be please update since I know u don’t usually get online to chat! I will somehow have to find a way to get in contact with you. Eventually I will find a way but today, nor tomorrow is it. I actually do not think I will even attempt. The last time it took much effort to find you/her… So I will not try unless it is set right in front of me. I miss her much.
On another note, keep Miss Dorota in your prayers as well as Miss Emily G., Emmie I believe, is in need of a good realization with a few things as well as her Harry Potter books. I have tried time and time again but I do not seem to be getting through to her very well.
And now, I will go. I do want to work on Beautiful Child, as I have been for a week now and I have only picked it up twice and got to page 84… Plus, I need to start studying. I have two test tomorrow.
Since January 10th I have not seen one update from my dear and ever so beautiful Emily Suzanne…I am honestly bummed out about this. I know I said I wasn’t going to look at her blog anymore but how can I not? It’s been made part of my daily routine! It’s also hard to stop because she’s sorta made a mark on me! - Something similar to Katie and Dolly and Gina and Jen but different. But anyway, Miss Emily, where ever you may be please update since I know u don’t usually get online to chat! I will somehow have to find a way to get in contact with you. Eventually I will find a way but today, nor tomorrow is it. I actually do not think I will even attempt. The last time it took much effort to find you/her… So I will not try unless it is set right in front of me. I miss her much.
On another note, keep Miss Dorota in your prayers as well as Miss Emily G., Emmie I believe, is in need of a good realization with a few things as well as her Harry Potter books. I have tried time and time again but I do not seem to be getting through to her very well.
And now, I will go. I do want to work on Beautiful Child, as I have been for a week now and I have only picked it up twice and got to page 84… Plus, I need to start studying. I have two test tomorrow.
Monday, February 13, 2006
| You Have a Choleric Temperament |
 You are a person of great enthusiasm - easily excited by many things. Unsatisfied by the ordinary, you are reaching for an epic, extraordinary life. You want the best. The best life. The best love. The best reputation. You posses a sharp and keen intellect. Your mind is your primary weapon. Strong willed, nothing can keep you down. Your energy can break down any wall. You're an instantly passionate person - and this passion gives you an intoxicating power over others. At your worst, you are a narcissist. Full of yourself and even proud of your faults. Stubborn and opinionated, you know what you think is right. End of discussion. A bit of a misanthrope, you often see others as weak, ignorant, and inferior. |
suprisingly i actually like this song on occasion!
| Your Stripper Song Is |
 Dirrty by Christina Aguelera "Too dirrty to clean my act up If you ain't dirrty You ain't here to party" You're so dirty, you make Christina look clean. |
| Your 2005 Song Is |
 Don't Cha by the Pussycat Dolls "Dont cha wish your girlfriend was hot like me Dont cha wish your girlfriend was a freak like me" What happens in 2005, stays in 2005! |
Friday, February 10, 2006
Ask u shall find: What a ride
One minute I'm ranting and raging and the nst i'm about to burst into tears. All week it's been like this too. And I finally gave up yesterday. It's a combo of everything really. First I wanna tell a person off cause she's ridiculing me on how i dress and the next moment i'm utterly and hopelessy missing someone and the next thing i know it i'm cryin'. One minute I wanna beat the living crap out of someone, the next i'm just happy to know that I get to go home soon.There is a long list of things i've been havin going to the extremes about.. Yesterday, though, gramdma fisher said something and it was something about how i've been treating her like 'dirt' and how i love my friends more than my familyi. How she's done soo much for me; given me a home and so on.. (just puttin me on a guilt trip and actin like she made a mistake by 'taking me in') How i'm all like i dont want want her listening to my conversations and she says she never once listened in when just 10 minutes before she was commenting on a conversation i was having with a friend from church!!! One thing tells me to go offo n her and the other is 'patience, just keep that mouth shut.. That's what did it i guess.. When i was done, or moreless when she was done 'expressing her feelings to me; i went in my room and broke... I crashed..What else was i saupposed to do?! so maybe your thinking she cried cause her grandma was being mean with her? no.. it was more than that.. it was a lot of things combined and i couldn't hold it anymore. I tried to explain to her the best i could without leaving too much behind, i felt like i was dealing with a 7year old's sensitivity.
I just miss dolly and auntie right now.. (well right then and now but mostly then) I wanna be left alone for awhile... I don't know what i want anymore.. I want a hug and not from someone who doesnt feel like they mean it. People around here don't seem to be very sincere at times. I just want to be with Doll... by katie..Gina.. But dolly mostly. I feel safe with her.. I could cry forever and it'd be alright. I know i can go to her or for Gina or Katie for that matter. They're comforoting i suppose.. its just something about them.. Not something i could explain..
Btw and its not that i love my friends more either. I choose to love them.- I dont HAVE to love them acuse they're family. Its not the same. PDA with family isn't something i should HAVE to do. They know i love them why should i have to show it to them ALL the time. Why should i be forced when I dont wanna be forced to love them.. It's just not right...
Missin LBG.. Come home..
"Don't worry, once i get you in person i am not going to let go of you!" I told you i'd keep note of it!!! Sent on feb. 8, 2006
I just miss dolly and auntie right now.. (well right then and now but mostly then) I wanna be left alone for awhile... I don't know what i want anymore.. I want a hug and not from someone who doesnt feel like they mean it. People around here don't seem to be very sincere at times. I just want to be with Doll... by katie..Gina.. But dolly mostly. I feel safe with her.. I could cry forever and it'd be alright. I know i can go to her or for Gina or Katie for that matter. They're comforoting i suppose.. its just something about them.. Not something i could explain..
Btw and its not that i love my friends more either. I choose to love them.- I dont HAVE to love them acuse they're family. Its not the same. PDA with family isn't something i should HAVE to do. They know i love them why should i have to show it to them ALL the time. Why should i be forced when I dont wanna be forced to love them.. It's just not right...
Missin LBG.. Come home..
"Don't worry, once i get you in person i am not going to let go of you!" I told you i'd keep note of it!!! Sent on feb. 8, 2006
Thursday, February 09, 2006
Let's see....a bunch of jibberish.. don't read!
What's gonna be the topic of today's blog, self? The little Yancer girl who seems to dissapear quite often? How about the Miss Andi not returning to camp this summer? Maybe Mmy ongoing plans for BMA next year? What about that person at church whos gettin under my skin about my wardrobe? The happening in my world aren't many which makes it much harder to find something to blog about...I think I might just settle on Miss Yancer since I haven't heard from her in such a long while and she still keeps poppin up in this little head of mine throughout the course of the day. It seems only right to anyway! I mean, since she's not blogging then she must not be reading any blogs either, right?! of course i'm right! So while she IS away I can let ya'll know about my more recent thoughts of her, right? of course! I know what your thinking. Talk about emily? What is there to say about her? well, truth is, nothing really. I just figured, if i'm going to talk about someone, it might as well be Emily. Dolly isn't a very interesting person to talk about ALL the time. Kate, the ever so wonderful and beautiful, there really isn't much to say about her. Well there is one thing! She had quite an interesting experience with a razor which was not a venus. Poor girl..And I havent heard from Amy, Jeremy or Raquel so there isn't anything to say there either. The people at school are too... dramatic to talk about.. yea dramatic.So, in my small world, Emily is the only other person. :) (I do have more friends! But these were just the first to come to mind..)
So as I was saying, Miss Yancer. If u don't already know, she's missed. Although she's missed I don't have her anywhere in my room anymore. i DID,however, print out a few more copies of us because i seem to keep using them for something.. Come to think of it, there isn't much to say about her either! phoo! oh!!!! Did i mention in an ealier post that we got rid of the very couch she once sat on?!?! I'm SOO glad i have a picture of that couch!! ;)I think i wanna go back to camp and start those two weeks over, there had to have been some way to make it better!! I HATE thinking about what I say.. You can't change what has already happened. You're supposed to look at the present, and the future, not that past.
What is all this jibberish about? Absolutely nothing! well it is something but nothing major. Just some of the things that go on in my little head during the day. Lots of little questions that aren't relevent to whats going on that that very moment.
So as I was saying, Miss Yancer. If u don't already know, she's missed. Although she's missed I don't have her anywhere in my room anymore. i DID,however, print out a few more copies of us because i seem to keep using them for something.. Come to think of it, there isn't much to say about her either! phoo! oh!!!! Did i mention in an ealier post that we got rid of the very couch she once sat on?!?! I'm SOO glad i have a picture of that couch!! ;)I think i wanna go back to camp and start those two weeks over, there had to have been some way to make it better!! I HATE thinking about what I say.. You can't change what has already happened. You're supposed to look at the present, and the future, not that past.
What is all this jibberish about? Absolutely nothing! well it is something but nothing major. Just some of the things that go on in my little head during the day. Lots of little questions that aren't relevent to whats going on that that very moment.
Thursday, February 02, 2006
Let us pray...
Father,
I pray for Dolly to find her wallet, for it had many important things in it that allows her to get through her day. Someone has stolen it. Please allow the person who has stolen find that it was wrong of him/her, and through the grace of God, return it with everything in it. Please bless him of the things he/she may need so he does not have to steal.
In His precious and Holy name i pray,
Amen
I pray for Dolly to find her wallet, for it had many important things in it that allows her to get through her day. Someone has stolen it. Please allow the person who has stolen find that it was wrong of him/her, and through the grace of God, return it with everything in it. Please bless him of the things he/she may need so he does not have to steal.
In His precious and Holy name i pray,
Amen
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