“The white Rose” in question(this may be a delicate subject for few viewers, just a forewarning)

I don’t know how or where to start. I had this all in my head last night around 10ish or 11ish but have since forgotten how I was going to start into the subject so I’m gonna dive right into it. OK?

“The white Rose”, a lesson before mentioned by a fellow friend in their blog is about a Christian’s purity. Well.. I frankly don’t know how to put this so bare with me. I have before been accused of not being “pure” and some others have accused me of have sexual relations with another person both male and female. I don’t know where some of these people are getting these assumptions but I wish it would stop. I have been constantly related to being that “impure” person on several occasions, a few of them with my own family members. My own mother has accused me right out front of such unchristian-like activities. I would be lying if I said that most recently another person from my family has accused me, but I WAS getting that assumption when she came up to me on Sunday afternoon during my bros bday party that she was accusing me of doing ‘things’. And so I am going to put this to rest as much as possible, knowing that some of those viewers read this blog here and there.

I am STILL A VIRGIN and I am not a bit ashamed of it, thank you. I know right from wrong and what God advises on such subjects. i'm not perfect either just for the record. For all of u curious people, when I think it is the right person I will devote myself to him full heartedly, and that certain someone will be a Christian and not just one that says he is. That someone will also understand and respect my decision to stay pure and the time will eventually come (which IS WAY down the road-after I get married!!) All of the guys that I associate with clearly know my intentions and know that i am a christian and respect that. I am not a difficult woman!! They will know if I like them and if I don’t have feelings for them.
I still feel like I’m not hitting the topic I want to…aiming towards...

I have never found the harm in talking to a person of the opposite sex. Although I do know of the dangers that go with them I have never met someone who has tried to well... trespass me. I have never found the harm in being in company of another guy alone because we are never in a secluded place. It has always been relatively public. People were always free to come and go as they pleased.
Until recently I have really never been hurt or maybe the phrase I want would be… surprised to be confronted with such a thing from a certain person. I’m not sure anymore if I would say hurt but its going to take me some time to bounce back and ‘reconnect’ to this person, if u will.

U guess, going back to the white rose theory, It is a very sacred thing to me and I do not plan for the rose to be ripped apart any time soon. I am still trying to remember what exactly it was I DID want to say and so I still feel like I’m not hitting the correct topic. I am STILL wondering how some people could connect me to such actions or assume such things. I have never given people reason to think anything less than that perfect white rose that I hold so dear to me. But as for the doubting people, I am and will be for a long time be that perfect white rose that’s going to stay in a glass case, like that red rose in “beauty and the beast”.
I dunno.. But I’m gonna’ go for now.. I remember eventually want I WANTED to say but until then I’ll just have to leave it be… I want to get into “An Equal Music.”