am i allowed to be angry and happy and miserable all at the same time.Maybe miserable is too strong of a word. I'm should be angry at myself and not at another person(maybe let down) because i let myself get my hopes up when there really wasnt a 100% when it was just a 99%. I'm rather quite happy because i saw Emily C. twice in the past couple weeks and i'm happy that Liz is back to her normal or even happier self. I was really a little worried and was praying for her over homeleave about i'm not sure what myself. I'm miserable or just blahed about realizing how antisocial i really am or at least can be. I'm also kinda unhappy about my morbid side/self surfacing again for unknown reasons.
it makes me smile to hear of Emily Yancer in some form of her writings. Something about her makes me want to go play in a field of daisies and cherish the simple things. Someday i think i'd want to meet a mini version of emily and have her around all the time, especially if i become a teacher.

ok i'm going to stop not having a life and go do something else that makes me procrasinate. that doesnt include rec.



*101 ways to procasinate*