ok so right about now, is where my day couldn't be any worse. I'll tell you what i WANT to do. I want to go crawl into a tiny, empty space in my closet, close the door so its nice and dark and cry. My ankle is sore, i made myself walk, i had to get up out of bed who knows how many times. Last night after hurting my ankle, Nikki couldn't do anything for me when i went to the office and i was late for studyhall, shelly gave me grief and I still had to work that night (which didn't happen) Before leaving for the piano recital I got an ace bandage. When i got to the sanctuary and found a seat, Mericel put the ace bandage on. Talk about pain. Tears filled, and I was in soo much pain i couldnt even get my vocal cords to work to scream even if I wanted to. So, walking from dorm to building back to dorm and then back to building again was fustrating. It wasn't the pain that made me upset it was how slow i was that bothered me. I wasn't able to clean my room last night because of my tiredness so that had to be put off and i am usually not a messy person at all. I can't even stand a little dust! After my 5th period class, the first thing i hear come out of my roomates mouth when she returned from home, is grief because i left the bedroom door unlocked and the lights on and there wasnt any water left in the room. My geometry teacher made me angry too. I had walked down there, with an ankle in pain, to find out if i could get a worksheet because i had missplaced mine. He opened the door to assist another student and closed it on me and walked away when i was right there. I stood there, motioned for roxy and Lazar wouldnt let her. I motioned for Lazar and he ignored me although he saw me. I had to walk back up to Shofner's class, emptied handed. Then when i did have geometry class he closed the door on me and walked away again before I could get in the room. The bell had just finished ringing so i was late. I told him before i left the classroom the first time that i needed to go to my locker to get my book. So he closed the door, i stood there for a moment and then turned and limped away stopping at the music door entrance, thought what i SHOULD do and decided to proceed to the office and let attendance know that i was present in class. Talked to mr. Hannah, mr. Hannah talked to Lazar and I was back in class. All through this i was in pain. now for dinner and carrying a pack of water back up to the room. :)
oh and i suppose i forgot to mention that i've stopped talking to dolly until she comes home which makes me all the more miserable (not that miserable but it still adds up) ;). and was told today to suck it up ( my ankle). I'm on a mission to be better before homeleave. Ice, eleveation,compression, rest..RICE
love you katie! thinking of you!