Happenings...

To start off, the person i miss today is Emily Y. She really is a cool person. She's a good friend too. Although i'm not around her enough, from time to time i see/hear second hand things of her kindness and loyalty to her close friends.

I recently had a realization about a friend while talking late with another friend. we'll call the person Kodak. Anywho, Kodak wanted to know what was soo great about this friend who we'll call.... Cindy. Anyway, i was trying to explain to Kodak the reasoning of Cindy's place in my heart and I finally figured it out while talking to Kodak. It just hit me. So this is what i told Kodak.
"So I met 'cindy' way bak when and the first year i saw her, I didn't really know her at all. So the following year i was in her cabin. I somehow connected with her and we clicked....blah, blah, blah... " long story short, "I think God sent her to me not only as a friend but as someone to help me get closer with God and someone as an example. An example of hope and faith. That "this too shall pass..." A hope that no matter what, God can help me out and Cindy helped me see that just by who she is. She and I related very well when it came to... pretty much everything... our lives. "she's a living example of God's work through someone that he deeply cares about." (That's what it was that i said! ha!! i FINALLY remember!!) I told Kodak that. I told Kodak that she was more than hope and faith and Someone that God had given me, she was someone who was really there and understood all the poop i was tolerating and still tolerate. But now, i do it with more trust and hope in myself and in God. I have someone that i can hold on to and see that God really cares about people and he sent 'Cindy' to me to tell me just that. and as soon as i realized that after talking to Kodak i was pretty much crying because of the realization in and of itself. I never really looked at it that way until i said it full heartedly to Kodak, a friend that is becoming very dear to me. And Kodak knows it too. I was really quite greatful, because I think God was speaking through me but to me at the same time and it was really moving when i heard what i was saying.
So that is my thoughts on that for today. One day maybe i will transform it into a testimony. :) I have thoughts about it already. :)

Switching moods completely, for spring break i'm going to Maryland to stay with my auntie and i get to ride her horse and i'm SOO excited because i'm wanting to start from scratch again and learn everything over again.. pretty much everything.. Although i'd like to be taught by the one who first taught me everything, which is very little, i'm happy to get to ride, even if its just in a ring with a bunch of mirrors. Plus, auntie told me that her horse has this way of telling the rider if he/she is doing something wrong. --which is WAY COOL. She trained this horse from scratch pretty much, so i'm told, so however she mananged to teach him that, props to her.

and now.. off to chat with jenny