i was supposed to blog about something funnny yesterday but now i forget what it is.

Here's the news updates:

• last tour of the year was cancelled last night due to a series of problems
  
• my little brother is turning 6 this weekend and i might be able to go home for it.
  
• because the tour was cancelled all the talking i was going to do will need to happen at bma instead of trapped on a bus. ;)
  
• Mr. flores' daughter is in the hospital( so pray bout that)
  
• emily carlson came and left :(
  
• we need a task force dean for next year
  
• i'm afternoon desk worker next year (if i return- mother related)
  
• Women are still fickle
  
• Instruments are still my only love
  
• Trust is still an issue for me but it's coming along.
  
• I can play the first movement of braudenburg on the violin and viola without mistakes
  
• Some of my friends are still too far away and i miss them very much. VERY MUCH
  
• AND miss K. Carlson- i miss her hugs
  
• Pray for dearest friend dan.
  
• oh, and this summer, for people who don't know yet(katie), i'm working as kitchen staff this summer at camp. I'm going to make it a good summer no matter what and i'm GOING to strive for God and his presence at LLC.
  
• My roomate is still a living roomate. :) ;)
  
• All the Emily's I know are still really cool. kinda wish i was an emily sometimes... ;)
  

Judas came straight to Jesus. "Greetings, Teacher!" he exclaimed and gave him the kiss. Matthew 26:49

When someone hurts you, it can be devastating. The pain can make you never want to trust another human again. Jesus knows what it's like to be betrayed--and yet he offers you his consolation and sustaining love.

I am disgusted with my life. Let me complain freely. I will speak in the bitterness of my soul. Job 10:1

We need to reverence God, but that doesn't mean we can't be honest with him about our struggles. Job, in the Old Testament, certainly was. Like Job, you can be straight with God. His ear is tuned to you.

If you ignore criticism, you will end in poverty and disgrace; if you accept criticism, you will be honored. Proverbs 13:18
It can be hard to take criticism, but criticism offered in love with wisdom can be a true blessing in disguise. Ask God to help you be gracious when others offer strong advice.

You know what stinks? When I give someone grief because they haven't updated their blog and then I, myself don't update for a LONG time. :)So, I'm in maryland. There's nothing planned today except for going to this show at 2pm. Olney theater it is called.

So, i'm in maryland with my aunt. Didn't get back to her house til 3am and got up at 8:30.
ok i'm out. wanna find someone.

So i've started this prayer log thing on my computer. It's pretty sweet because there's a lot I can do in this program so i hear. The down side of it is, i don't know how to do any of the cool stuff. But every day for the past... 2 weeks, since i started on the puter, i logged everyday.It's pretty awesome for me. I've always enjoyed writing, and a couple years ago i started a prayer journal up thinking, it be good for me to write something. Then I stopped. I think it was last year(?) i got a little revolve journal and decided while i was at camp i'd try to write in it every day and it turned into a prayer journal in the end. I don't write in it much anymore though. It's in my closet in the dorm with another journal my cousin got me. I think its because i'm starting not enjoy writing as much as I used to. I don't have an intrest to write. I only write letters to people now and thats not very often anymore either. I've made this attatchment to the keyboard now and it makes writing for me so much easier and faster. :) So when I started this journal on my puter I decided everytime I would write in it, it would be thanking God for something more than asking him for anything. They don't have to be big things. Like thanking him for the sunshine or thanking him for helping me find something or helping me think of creative ways to send a smile or a message to someone far far away- or even in the dorm for that matter. ;) It's pretty cool because He's like this friend who helps me out whenever i need it or sends me little messages of 'i love you' through out the day and it makes me thankful for being at bma sometimes. Even sometimes i think he's telling me, this is for you because you're sticking it out at bma. (even if i don't like it) ;)
So i got this in my inbox today from my daily devotional and thought of my prayer journal on my puter.

I recall all you have done, O LORD; I remember your wonderful deeds of long ago. Psalm 77:11

Take time to remember what God has done for you.

[Simeon said,] "As you promised me, I have seen the Savior." Luke 2:29-30

All of the good promises that the LORD had given Israel came true. Joshua 21:45

Simeon believed God would show him the Messiah, but he waited 80 years. Can you trust God when it seems like he won't come through? Hold on--he is faithful.