I spent three-hundred bucks.... It sounds like a lot, right? That 'a lot' got me little. Now that i think about it, i feel like i should've saved that money... Actually, technically i only spent $200 and my grandma gave me $120. So that made me happy. I feel like i have a lot this year to take. Really, I don't... My roommate last year had soo much stuff. SO MUCH. But it was good cause she shared. :)) I will really miss my roommate this year, actually.We really did have good times, besides the arguing. We had discussions/arguing. I think thats just where God wanted me last year. I'm really super excited about having Gabby E. as my roommate this year though! it's gonna be soo chill.
The summer is almost over. I spent most of it up at camp working in the kitchen. Kitchen is probably one of the most fun jobs (besides counselor) especially with the boss I had. I really shouldn't go back to camp with the stuff i'll need to pay for this year but i feel like maybe i could go back another year. I already told ms. Denise i didn't want to come back. I don't think it's worth the drama. But the kids... they're charming. Whoever decided that that job's moto was 'it's all about the kids' was completely right. It is all about the kids. camp isn't camp unless the staff can show God to them through them to the campers. It's not camp unless everything, EVERYTHING, is in devotion to the campers. There's a slight problem though. Affection to the campers is restricted in the way that i connect to people. sometimes the adventure campers just need to be able to sit on your lap. It's how they bond. It's how I bond. hugs are a necessity. without that i don't think i would have gotten a wee bit close to Katie C. Especially last summer. I mean, hugs make everything better!!! especially when you KNOW that person means it. It's even better when they're not the type to just give out hugs. But camp is still good, not the same as it used to be but still worth going back for. But i really do miss how the barn used to be (cough, cough Kt).
I'm a little nervous on what it is you find so different about me, dolly. I hope it's not bad. I actually wouldn't mind a Dolly lecture though... I actually have a reason that you could give me a lecture about/for. But that's for a conversation. ;) not now.. :P
I'm REALLY excited to go back to school, not for school, for the people. I've decided i can form to bma's society and it's bubble. No, what i'm truly excited about is to see Dan. Dan... He's been far away, off in Alaska, away from me.... :'( (tear...) Dan is like... like... Dan. He's pretty much the coolest guy in the states. The best thing yet is that he's no longer a village student. I hope.. :) So that means vespers and sabbath and after church and lots and lots of chill time! Dan, wherever you are right now, may you know i'm thinking of you and i can't wait too see that hair of yours and that so-called buff-ness you've obtained. ;)
And then there's the other jerk-face... whom i also miss... but not like Dan. Dan was too far away for too long. Seperation anxiety!! :P hahahaha
Listen to me Dan-- Don't ever leave again!!!!!
~So back to reality~
The love topic- yes again
I think i'm learning to love all over again. The semi-right way. The last couple years threw me off track- the reason i don't know. What i do know is that i hope to put it in practice. I think it may be a bit much to just love everybody all at once because love takes action.I'm glad that i've learned something after all the arguing and state of denial deal. (God and his odd ways.. purpose to everything) It's odd how easily i was won over though.. I think it was official after i got a book.. Stupid books.. I think i may have a different approach to everything now. It scares me a little. it will take time.
I'm stupid really. Because over the summer i was talking at the commitment fire and i said it myself. I told them, When I love someone, giving Liz as my example since it was someone they knew, i'll drop everything i'm doing to be there for that person- to love them. I started rambling off a bunch of things that i'd done with/for liz because she's my friend and i loved her. (hahaha love-trust. it wasn't quite a love trust relationship) (note to self: discussion about how hard it would be to love everyone because that means you have to trust them as well.thats rough..) in comparison to God, he'll twist and turn every which way to make something happen for you if it's his will. He wants you to know that He is your best friend and he WILL remind you everyday that he DOES love you and will ALWAYS love you.He'll repeat himself as many times as he as to. I told them, yea its cliche but its only cliche up to the point its been experienced. and vise versa because, for me, when i love him i'll do things for him. like read the bible or go somewhere or do something he wants me to even if i dont want to. OR even go all the way to The united states for just a few hours just so a little girl there knew that i was loved A LOT. hehehe. but that's not God doing that. he would, but that's not who i was talking about. lol
I hope i didn't repeat myself too much.
MMMMBye!
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