Decisions, Decisions

I am at a crossroads with my summer decisions right now. Camp has been my summer for over six years, only two as a staff member. I don't know if i can tear away from summers with campers, singing praise songs, and lots of endless and also rewarding work at all hours.
BMA offers me over 2,000 bucks if i stay put, eight hour shifts and a entirely free evening to also make memories (just not with campers. :-( ) I want to make change and not return to camp but i might miss something worth staying for. I don't know what to expect yet at camp, i'm calling this afternoon to find out. I want to stick with my initial word and go through with the "i'm not going back." My heart says go back, my head says stay at bma- experience something new(good or bad). I usually listen to my head. More often than my heart anyway. This seems to be a rerun every year of wanting to go back or not. Also the question is my spiritual readiness for camp. Can i live with not getting anything over $1,000. OH yea, and staying at bma also includes incentive over the summer which is also a nice bonus. So essentially, do i want memories/experience, or change/money?

i have only until tuesday to make my final decision, Ms. Denise needs my input by that day.
Its equally half-half at this moment.

My brother's birthday is this coming monday! He will be 7 years of age. :-) Getting older too fast. He will need to grow into 7 year old jeans. (literally and metaphorically.)
JSR is this weekend also. I may go stay at someone's house for the night too. Shelly is coming up too. :-) AND focus week in the girl's dorm is almost done!!! yay!!!!!!

Sunshine, Come to me

I don't know. i wanted to post. There is a lot to talk about. I don't know what to however. So in the end i will straight up say I am feeling very happy all week ...

• i am happy to be back and
  
• i am happy i have wonderful friends
• i appreciate our principal (even though he's leaving.)
• I LOVE my bed
• suprise visits make me happy
• I enjoyed doing an english project this week and it also was quite comforting
• Chemistry, although sometimes unnecessary, i love the company that i have at my table
• music is amazing and Kate nash is completely amazing
• The sun was shining all week
• i got to see jeremy yansen
  
• i got 2 dresses before homeleave was over and didn't pay more than 20 bucks for both. :-)

• Becky G. is my really awesome neighbor and i love 'er
• Emily G. is coming to free running and i'm oober excited!!!!!!
  

And although life at home is hectic, my mother is spending my money (as usual) meaning i'm broke, and i probably won't see my brother 90% of the summer i like this week

Customer Assistance

Returning to BmA. Auntie will be here soon. How soon I don't know. But i am getting ready.


Give me a call!!

A Moment, Please

"Evan's mom died yesterday around 6pm. We're planning on flying up there tomorrow. His family lives in the Gettysburg area. I can't believe she's not here. She was such a rock and I thought she would be around forever. His parents have helped so many people. They did foster care for longer than Evan has been alive. Mom would be the first time help someone out anytime they needed it, even when it was inconvenient for her. My children will never know her and that will be such a loss for them. It feels kind of funny to be grieving for children that I don't even have. I'm so worried that Evan's dad will just give up and go, too. I don't know if any of us can handle doing this again anytime soon.

All we can ask for right now is prayer.

Jenny"

I was only a few minutes away from her yesterday. I had the chance to go see her and i didn't. Only if i stayed around a little longer i would have gone.

Join Us!

This will be my recharge for the year! Join me and lets have some fun.
PS good music

To Emily

I'm only a day early...

To Kyle

I Went On A Date

The sun is showing his face again and I decided to make a date with him today. I think he's going to stick around with me for a little while.- and that i am happy for.

yesterday i stacked two truck loads of wood and in the midst of it noticed the sun.

And because of that (which i actually did on a whim to get fresh air) I ran 4 miles today around my area where the trees overhang the road, and although there are brown leaves along the sides, i feel that there will be some green growing on the trees again. Which means less suicide attempts around the world.

• We played hide and seek, the sun and I. I the seeker, and he the hider. Of course I did find him every time because where else can he hide other than behind the clouds and trees while he's kinda just hanging out there in space.
  
• The creek(s) that surround my house are rushing again with lively-hood, I saw a blue bird sweep across one of the creeks. Stopping at the bridge the ground around it is rather moist from the sun's doing (of course). it's so moist that when i stepped on it i sunk.
  
• Although i'm going ice-skating on friday (which kinda requires cold -its indoors) i WANT to be social again and do stuff which is also a good thing.

I will go back outside in a few minutes to enjoy the sun setting in the west, which is at the face of the house, pick up sticks, fallen branches, and any other debris that i might find. So in my productive moments, i'm going to enjoy the nice of 52 degrees and no longer allow myself to wallow in any form of depression or self pity.

love to Dolly, Emily and chocolates.

These are the only pictures from junior prez that i have of kyle and myself. Enjoy

Class Banner

Introducing our class banner of 2009.

Curtsies

Courtesy of dan and his picture skills these are some of his pictures from DC trip


The above picture in order myself, emily f, kt paris, carlita, and melissa m.
below are the same people in different order

This is the really cool picture below

All at the lincoln memorial