off and on i get this feeling that no matter what i don't really amount to much and basically i'll never succeed. The words escape me now but these were the morning thoughts to my days beginning and i will not let it be the ruin to my day. anyway... too often i am getting this way and it continues to linger and playing with those old thoughts that i was sworn never to think about again do arise from time to time now. I would prefer to relinquish them however i do find truth in my feelings. taught by my own advice its not that easy. If i think it, the outcome will equal the perspective. I fear myself a failure in too many attributes to account for and even when i do try my efforts feel as if they are in vain (for lack of better description...).
A+P for example, i work hard and study and read and whatever but no matter the million different techniques I've tried i have failed to conquer the conquerable.
To pursue a great fulfilling career- wow.. scary thought. Truth: its hard finding a job i will enjoy studying, pursuing as a career and get really good income to live rather comfortably.
Drivers Test: well actually... permit... which i have failed to obtain...
among the several personal issues i will not discuss, i have opted for therapy in the fall and wallowing now and occasional study time in the chemistry and A+P field.
time to go inside now because there are goosebumps on my legs
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i know how you feel. sometimes things seem a little dark. but i think you are so incredibly talented! and there are only bright things in store for you. i love you so much :)
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