last night

i had a wonderful night!! I can't say why but i did! I spent the majority of it up at my computer thinking about my story but not writing anything, and talking to a someone. I got her. It was mean though... and i sorta feel bad for doing it... But she knows i love her and always will.. I cannot get mad at her nor is it possible for her to hurt me. I was at first shocked that she would stay up that long, for well.... it will remain in my head while the rest of you guess... Anyway, to that someone, I love you, you are beautiful!! you are a beautiful beast!! ;) i don't care what you look like i still love you and know you are beautiful! i mean c'mon... look in the mirror... it's you we are talking about...
Although i didn't get crap done i'm glad i spent all night right here at my desk with papers scattered everywhere, laundry waiting to get done and stories waiting to be written. I'm glad i have a nameless friend who i love very much.. lets do some recalling.. since i saved THIS conversation..it's 27pages long! i'd clean this entire house, my grandma's house, do roofing, try my darnest to get As in every class, i'd start violin again, i'd get new strings for my violin too, i'd tutor, i'd sing, i'd dance, i'd bend every which way humanly possible. i'd give her a certain hottie (Jeremy, even though i love him! ;), i'd get up, go to school, come home and go to work, come home around 8 get h/w done, clean up houses, and go to bed... i'd skip my reading.. i'd get rid of ALL my teddy bears... and barbie dolls and porcelain dolls, i'd jump of a bridge!! with a bundgy cord of course so i could live to see this person. now, keep in mind i'd prob. do the same for let see... Jen. B if i could find a cure for crohn's, for Gina, Dolly, Jenny,Jeremy, Frank, Katie and Emily if the need be, if it would make their lives better i'd prob. sacrifice myself if it weren't such a sin..


Dear Jeremy!
oh my Jeremy! i didn't even realize you read my blog. if i could have put you but at the same spot i would have! you BOTH are amazing!!! but if it matters to you that much i'll put you FIRST on my list!!! :D You'd beat Katie! It was just when ever i thought of you.. when thers Frank there's Jeremy.. Be happy you are in a frame on my dresser and you are in my binder with your own page AND you're in my notes everynow and again when i get bored in class....
missin' you much! love ya!

Peter,
I thought about putting you on my list but i'm trying to stop living such a dangerous life! ;)

I didn't know a whole 3 or 4 people actually read my blog from time to time! I will have to find more exciting things to write about!