What now?

For many of us who do not know yet, Dolly is either pulling all of our legs or it's true. Acording to Dolly's blog she is not going to be rehired to LLC. It's hard to even think about...sigh.. IF this is true, I do not know just how i'm going to be able to break it to all of the campers. They're going to be heart broken. For me I feel like I have just been destroyed in every way. There is no motivation to do anything but anything. What is the meaning of all this? Why is it the Lord must torture me like this?Let me replace that last sentence with why must Satan do this!? As well as everyone else who loves Doll. My cousin, who had worked very hard to go to camp this year, is now crushed. She had done a lot of persuading!She really wanted to meet Doll-Doll.. When the first paragraph of her blog had processed through my mind I imediantly picked up my phone and called Emily to tell her the news. She deserves to know. IF this isn't an April Fools joke I'm going to try my darn hardest to get the camp to change their minds. I'll call up and talk with them then discuss it with my fellow girl campers and we will do something!! BUT if this IS a joke then oh boy is Dolly going to get it!! how? I have know idea.. but she'll surely get it! But as of right now, this very moment, my eyes are still red. I cried for about an hour... How was I possibly going to tell the girls? How was Dolly taking all this in? Is it possible for the camp to think such things about the Very Dorothy Ann? Will I get to be with her at all this summer? What about all the other people who are going to be crushed? Just how is it all possible? It can't be! I will not let it be. I thought it through and it is possible for Dolly to do something like this, joke wise. She is very good at it! Let me tell you!! Anybody heard of the potato and tomatoe story? ;) I'm pretty sure that was it was about... Right now I have no motivation to do anything. The only thing that I'm looking forward to now is just to be able to talk to Dolly. Knowing she'll never know if i really got to 110lbs. if I'm still eating and everything else. She probably wont come to visit this summer IF this is true. I just have this great feeling that she's just pulling our leg! I mean seriously! Dolly not get hired at camp? How would the camp know her blog address? Who at camp would read it? Now, I know Dolly is capable of such things. Wendy nor anyone else could do this. Just being who they are- from what I know that is.. I DO NOT want to believe this. But if it's true... I'm going back to how I was! I can stop shoving food down my throat, stop cheking my weight, stop being incredibly nice to my mom so she has no reason to keep me from camp, Just stop. Doll would never know what my weight is/was. But now I think, It's NOT HER FAULT!! she doesnt deserve to suffer like that. Does she? nah! the camp does!! :P I just won't go for 2 weeks, although I do love the people there. It won't be as fun... :'(