Oh yea

This morning I woke up with a small startle to my mom opening my door looking for some papers and then I fell back to sleep for a few more minutes. I was hoping Doll wasn't online so i could sleep that extra few minutes. I figured I could go one morning without having to get up so early just to do one thing of importance knowing i'll have another chance to talk to her. So decided I'd go back to sleep.

I didn't get up until around 7:30-8 and when I did I started to clean up a bit, do some dishes and make my to do list. I ended up getting it almost completed with only some updates on my computer to do. That can wait and it will have to cause I'll have to go get the stuff i need in order to update.

I cleaned up my room a bit, changed my sheets and blanket, polished, dusted, organized, put clothes away, went through some old things that needed to be thrown out, ate and then decided to sit down and read. Instead of reading Bel Canto my nose is in A great and terrible Beauty. It's about a girl whos name is Gemma who is somewhat haunted by these visions after her mothers death. She invisioned her mother dieing and what took place at that moment. She wanted to yell for her but could not speak. She was at loss of a voice.
She is unable to move, paralized. She tries to get up but can not. Her breaths are short and hard. Then she sees a man and tries to call for help but can't because her lack of knowledge of hindu as well. When she comes back to reality someone takes her to this crowd of people circled around a store and she pushes her way through the crowd to see her mother dead.
the last words she said to her mom were " I don't care if you even come back" or something like that. and the daughter very badly wanted to go to school in London with her brother. 3 months after her mom dies she's sent to the school she's longed for and it turns out not to be What she expected. She expected young ladies who play tennis in skirts on a perfect green field and girls who have perfect everything. So right now i'm up to the point where she traps the guy who is stocking her and telling her to block out these visions for they will cause great danger to not only her but others. She traps him and asks guestions thats she had come up with within the past few days or so. So after I find myself something to snack on I'll be going back to London! see ya!