There is this piece in my violin, just a small round pole like thing that is inside my violin that keeps my violin sounding as it does. And I feel sorta like this violin of mine and this little piece is the last bit of sanity I own(ed). Without this piece in tact, my violin does not sound full but hollow. How may I have discovered this tad bit of information you may ask? Well, you see, this little yet very valuable piece of wood has been knocked out of its place some how in the last 20 minutes or so as I have just done the same myself emotionally. The losing of this little piece of unpolished wood has been knocked out of place at the exact same time my violin became useless and IT was my last thing keeping ME sane and together-my violin that is. Because there is no Katie and no Dolly… but mostly Katie right now I am in a state of … well some kind of depression I guess… I’ve slept almost all day since I got home and the only person I WANT to hear the voice of is Katie or Emily C. Dolly is no where to be found and I have learned to live without her for time being. Well Actually I’d be lying if I said I couldn’t find her because I know where she is, she is in Greece.
So back to this little piece of wood… Because it is not in tact anymore I can not play my violin and I cannot play it until I get it back from my violin shop in Boiling springs and I can not get it there until possibly tomorrow and THEN I must wait for it to be repaired. By that time I will be deprived of the specific sound that the vibrations create when my bow glides across the four strings I so gladly pride and treasure which are on the only violin I own. And also, until then I don’t think I will be even a little sane again… unless by some miracle Katie, Dolly or Emily pop up no my porch step to save me and give me the love, comfort and security that can only be fulfilled by them. Well besides God… but I have been in my bible and in the book of Mark since yesterday night- when I am awake that is. I have finished four chapters in the revolve study guide that Katie gave to me and I think I have sucked up every piece of information I read. So until then, I think I will remain insane. Sadly, I was NOT ready to leave camp so soon and leave Katie, Emily, Emily, Denise and everyone else… including Anthony, Drake, Abby, Peter and lots of the other guy staff… whom are amazing I might add..
Oh and... My mom asked if I could make my dad’s pamphlets for his memorial service thing... I said no... I don’t think I could do it... For anyone else maybe... But not my own parents- it’s impossible.
Mom turned on some music. I still have that.. ahh… music… Tyler.. Abby... thanks..
1 comment:
i could have fixed that problem, with the sound post i mean, but we would need a special tool. it's the same thing with people- we can comfort them and support them just like that sound post, but the tool is the Holy Spirit. I wish so much I could have been with you through all of that...
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