Life Today

so hey, i'm at the spring picicinic. I brought "why you act the way you do" with me just because. I haven't read it, or even looked at it for a while so i figured i would have time today since i finally finished all my projects.
Life is going. I dont have any classes all day. :)) that's a winner. Also, i'm going to be outside most of the day and i'll be ablet o get online for most of it too. :)) so if you are available anybody i'm around.
It's really beautiful outside. there's a guitar playing in the background. The voices around me are only dinstant murmurs. It's like hearing life from the outside again. The bubble I have been living in has started to become irritating and the outside world is tugging at my shirt like a little sibling wanting attention.

In other thoughts, the end of the school year is coming up fast. My RA, shelly is about to graduate. It's been a good year learning new things about her and finallly clicking with her. That was an achievement in itself. :) I'm soon going to start thinking about the end of the year gift for a couple people. Nothing big. I haven't decided yet. A thank you letter is definitaely necessary. I've been telling everyone that i'm not coming back next year. I honestly don't know and i will go back to public school unless God litterally drags me back here, suitcase and all. I would much rather come back if i were a village student but that would be hard living an hour and 1/2 away. It's not far but still costs.

Crash landing is soon. just a few more days. I'm SOO excited for going to DC. It's... it's AMAZING. i miss DC. I miss city lights and sidewalks and NO BUBBLES!!! The last couple times i was in maryland i didn't go horseback riding because my aunt's hobrse was too far away. :( but that's ok. there's always summer. new horses and all. I'll miss zana and maggie and a certain horse lady but i'll move on no doubt. :P
wow.. it's been a really long time since i typed, since i've written. The campus 'bubble' has me wrapped around it's figure with everything but the things i enjoy. Writing, reading and time with God. Yesterday i wrote to God and stuff. It's been a while since i talked to him.. it feels like forever. (it's probably been a couple days really)

CAMP IS SOON. I'm excited to see little kids. to see kids. to be me. to stop being this masked person i've turned into. a happy little girl who tries too hard. but whatever. No boys for the summer and i'm staying away from bma kids. There's more out there besides this place called BMA. yea, it's cool at times but too emotionally draining. the school work isn't hard now that i feel organized. really i'm not but i can focus. I have my musis to jam to in the morning and a shower. Those are the things that make it worth it.
nothing more. As always, want Dolly to come home but whatever. I'll get over that too. She's got a life. ;) well... hehehe i gotta go do the whole running deal. that sounds good too. a good run. but i'm here at bma bubble. God is good.